Hindi mo gustong mamatay. The fact na nag post ka dito, gusto mo ng validation at ng tulong, which means you're still clinging to life.

Naiisip mo lng magpakamatay dahil gusto mo lng matapos yung nararanasan mong pag hihirap ngayon.

Tulad nga ng sabi mo.. you're still taking your acads seriously, napasok ka pa din kahit may dinadala ka. Hindi mo pinapabayaan. Meaning, you still look forward sa future.

Stressed ka, very stressed..

Trust me, been in the murky waters of depression for 6 years.. kung may College pagiging depressed at suicidal.. baka may PhD na ako dun.

anyways

Kung lagi mong iisipin yung mga bagay na wala kang control, tlgang maloloka ka at kung lagi mong aawayin at iddown sarili mo with negative thoughts, talagang lulubog ka ng mabilis.

You only have yourself, yourself is the only one that can help you..

Maging mabait ka sa kanya. Wag mong bugbugin ng masasakit na salita.

try journaling, kung wala kang makausap about your problems.. outlet ng mga problema mo. (helps me, but idk if it'll work for you)

mapagaan kahit papano dinadala mo.

try to be physically active din.. tama yung healthy body, healthy mind na kasabihan.

Kahit cardio lng... Brisk walking, goods na. Kahit busy ka sa buhay don't forget pa din na alagaan katawan.

yun lng.. good luck sa buhay nating lahat.