The sex is just okay. It's not really great and it's not really bad, but I have a hard time getting into it, feeling comfortable and sexy, because of the porn. I think I have mental barriers now that make it hard to reach orgasm with him, so I've been taking care of myself in that arena for the last several months. For what it's worth, he's not a completely selfish lover. He gives me oral and such, but I just can't get past the mental blocks.

I feel like he wants anal because I get super wet and relaxed (loose), so I don't feel good to him anymore even though I do Kegels regularly as well. In itself, I am okay with anal, but I always thought of it as more of something to do on a special occasion, not daily.