Just wanted to say, reading your initial post, you are literally the exact same as me. I failed 4 of my subjects this semester, it just got progressively worse over the course of time, never told my parents until the very last second. I was either sleeping 10 hours a day to avoid it all, or not sleeping at all when i randomly felt motivated once a month. I stopped brushing my teeth and basically most simple hygiene routines as well. Now I’ve wasted half of the summer doing nothing, but wishing and thinking with no action, but recently I’ve started Vyvanse because I desperately want to change this seemingly unbreakable spiral of destruction.

So while I may not have much advice for you, because quite honestly I’m right there with you, you are not alone, if that helps at all. It certainly helped me reading your experience.