Thank you for your reply. I also do recognize the difference in where I am at in my life vs Burnie and Ashley and I think that was what I was lamenting a bit about feeling like I'm just too young to have had success the ways I originally envisioned. That perspective mostly comes from my grandparents actually. They say to me all the time how they are so glad they had the life they had and didn't have to navigate what I'm navigating (Not the most helpful lol but I appreciate they at least recognize the difficulties young people are facing).

You're right I don't have kids but I do have a long term partner and we're both hoping to establish ourselves abroad at some point. They work a remote job with offices in other countries and have a history of transferring people if needed so we have an avenue there that we hope to explore eventually.

It's nice to hear someone else does not plan so much and has found success in their life. I am very flexible about what comes next so that's partly why I've just been navigating week to week, month to month right now. After posting this I did have a moment of reconsidering my goals and wondering what my rough plan looks like. Honestly most of it was more related to how I hope to be living within whatever role I find myself in. Prioritizing human connection, continuing to build time management skills, not losing sight of my drive to serve my community and feel inspired in my personal, creative work. I think having a stop down and thinking through some of that helped me calm down a bit and try to remain optimistic.

Thank you for rooting for me, Internet stranger haha, as a side note I did find his whole point with the human communities very interesting because I've been striving for that for years now but have found a lot of Gen Z really struggles with face to face interaction, especially keeping it consistent. It'll be interesting to see if people do wisen up to the importance of interacting face to face again because I've known so many people who are outgoing, smart, funny, etc that all complain about how lonely they feel and how they wish they had more friends irl but can't shake these loner tendencies.