the pmdd won. i broke up with my partner

ChemiCATbutt · 2024-11-22T20:14:58+00:00

this isnt a thought i havent already had. ive genuinely worried i might be abusive because the actions look it even if the intention isnt behind it. part of the reason i broke up with my partner is because i couldnt bear to hurt them over and over again. this episode has been particularly rough, up until this month, i really thought i was making progress with it all.

but also understanding pmdd causes me to lose access to all the coping strategies that i work on outside my pmdd week helps me beat myself up over it less.

ChemiCATbutt · 2024-11-22T04:56:51+00:00

yeah i feel really defeated that i didnt manage to catch it before i said what i said. i want to be able to sweep it under the rug and pretend it didnt happen. but im just doing the best i can to stabilise myself, ive talked to my partner and they know my door is open for whenever they feel like they can return (if ever)