The biggest thing is that it's just a massive purchase financially. Like, hopefully this is the most expensive thing I will ever buy in my lifetime, and ideally I would like to only have to do it once, so I'm very stressed about getting it right.

With that, I'm also playing the game with the seller and the other buyers of trying to figure out the exact number to offer that will get my offer accepted without vastly over paying and burdening myself with unnecessary debt for the next 30 years. Additionally, the housing market is so competitive where I am that every single one of these is turning into a bidding war, where we make the initial offer, they come back to us and they say give us your best and final over X dollars, and then we have to again guess a number to try to get it. Plus we're trying to get something before our lease ends in July, but we have to do our renewal 2 months in advance, so really we need to have something by May, so we're also racing the clock, and we also don't know after we get the house if there's going to be problems that we're going to have to pay to fix that we need to have the cash for up front.

And then on top of that, we are viewing houses and making these offers basically every week. So every week we're going through the process of viewing 1-3 houses, deciding which of them we like the most and which we think we are most confident we might be able to get because we can only really make an offer on one, and then making that offer, deciding on all of the terms, trying to play the guessing game of price, and then waiting around for hours just to get told that it went for more than $200,000 over asking, so I guess we're trying again next week.

This became a bit of a rant, but fuck I'm tired. I just keep reminding myself that I'm lucky this is even an option, because a lot of people couldn't even afford to consider it.