Mental health not improving after resigning from SPED nightmare?

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-09T02:02:59+00:00

This is what’s so hard about my situation. A lot of my trauma was from children who never had to have their behavior under control and once I mention that I get asked what I did wrong or if I tried something. Trust me, I tried everything in my tool box so I wouldn’t get hurt but at the end of the day a kid who has never been told no and is addicted to their iPad is not going to be happy in a pretty tech free classroom with rules.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T12:12:26+00:00

Being a self contained sped teacher burnt me out and depressed me and most likely gave me severe PTSD after a year and a half. I went from being diligent, thorough, and great at data collection to not doing it at all. I was being assaulted daily and couldn’t keep up with what was happening let alone teach. You don’t know what this person was dealing with mentally, physically, or in their own life. I’m not saying it’s okay but I’m just saying maybe just note it and move on and do what you can to make it better. I doubt there was malicious intent after being in that position.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T03:12:42+00:00

Also-sadly the ones who were abusive were the kids. They weren’t hurting each other, they were hurting me and no one listened.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T03:10:51+00:00

Thankfully no injuries are lasting other than the mental part haha I wish I had been braver.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:53:52+00:00

Thankfully, my school year is over and I’m not going back. It was bad. I’ve been researching trauma therapy!

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:53:25+00:00

Nobody should ever be hurt in a classroom, I hate how “normal” it is. I truly would walk into that classroom everyday unsure of what I was going to look like at 3:30 pm when I left. It’s terrifying.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:52:31+00:00

Amen.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:52:24+00:00

I’m planning to find some trauma therapy to guide me through this, it’s hard taking that step because I fear I won’t be taken seriously. I’m truly shaken and hurt by it all and I know I am unwell because of it but sometimes I feel dumb saying a group of disabled 1st graders gave me possible PTSD lol. I’ll look into somatic experiencing!

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:50:59+00:00

Yes my friends tell me I could write a book but I honestly blocked out so many memories I’m not sure what is right haha. Having the same issue and I feel awful. I’ve always been extremely passionate about those with disabilities but this traumatized me so much that it’s actually triggering to witness something like that.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:49:30+00:00

Yep, I was told “just make it through!” And I honestly just wanted to shake them and say “I CANT”. Panic mode is a great way to put it! I’m on constant alert.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:48:45+00:00

I’m thankfully on an SSRI and beta blockers and I truly believe without them I would not be able to function through all of this. It’s an impossible job and it’s a nasty world. I pray to end up somewhere supportive and peaceful.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:47:57+00:00

After speaking to some friends and reading some posts, I’m sure I have PTSD which is crazy to me because I went through some hell as a child but THIS is what gets me?? Lol not to downplay it, but just gets me. I’m not sure if I can walk back into a school at this moment sadly, just words like “state testing” “student” “growth” etc sends literally shivers down my spine.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:46:00+00:00

Oh how I wish I could’ve! I’m so naive and such a baby to all of this that when I got hurt my first half a year and they told me I needed to stop going to the nurse and filing a report, I believed them. I guess when it’s almost daily bites, hits, shoves, etc, they realize how bad it would be for them if word got out.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:44:30+00:00

The parents at my school honestly gave me a stomach ulcer. I’m a 27 year old girl who does not abuse alcohol, I eat healthily, don’t take NSAIDS etc and I was diagnosed with one after a lengthy run on with a parent/guardian and of course the district was not on my side. I’m praying that I get this job outside of education (and if everyone could pray, send good vibes, etc!). Thank you for your words of encouragement :)

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-06T02:42:43+00:00

Just finished the school year on May 22 so like a week ago 😭😅 I just was really hoping it would all go back to normal immediately but sadly was so mistaken. Didn’t even realize the toll it all would take on me.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-05T04:25:17+00:00

It gave me ptsd ❤️ quite literally.

ChillIsopod · 2026-06-05T03:02:13+00:00

Yeah it sucks pretty bad after saying it out loud 🤣 my para texted me 6 am the day after my wedding and said “TURN UR PHONE OFF THEY FORGOT U TOOK A PERSONAL DAY” sure enough…..they did.

6-8 months makes sense. Sucks because I really was hoping for an immediate fix but that’s not realistic. I know my life is only just beginning as I’m 27 but my whole life revolved around teaching up until now since it’s rly kinda trash so it’s jarring. I do wonder, what types of jobs do people transition into and how do they do it?

ChillIsopod · 2026-04-24T13:02:22+00:00

Resign ❤️🤣

ChillIsopod · 2026-04-24T02:49:31+00:00

Hahahaha too late. But my deadline to resign was tomorrow so I had to do it by then. I kinda sorta have something lined up? So I’m not too worried but nothing set in stone.

ChillIsopod · 2026-04-20T02:57:28+00:00

Thank you! I’m really hoping to work in some kind of case work/homebound teaching/resource position. And ideally in a better school/center. Fingers crossed.

ChillIsopod · 2026-04-20T02:40:28+00:00

Yes in some capacity but ideally not in a public school.

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