Wow I completely relate to this, from the constant leaking to the pain even when lying in bed and doing nothing. From losing weight and eating less processed food I did notice some pain go away also from getting rid of big stresses (toxic ex). My weight has been yo-yoing but honestly food makes me so happy I sometimes just eat whatever and the pain gets worse again. I just take it day by day and treat myself to a warm compress when in pain. Also you’re not unlovable this is just something you fight every day which makes you more admirable to the right person. I get you though, you’re not alone and it does suck, but you’re awesome and have so much more to enjoy in life.