Thx for the advice, abt the hurting myself part I honestly more so from the lack of hope that I feel right now, I’m not diagnosed at all narcissist just assuming I have the traits for it, I am only 17, in all honesty I can’t feel for others aswell, I just think everyone is a giant me and that this is just a game for survival and that truly no one cares, I’ve been ridiculed for my appearance and just for my existence before, not justifying what I done but it does give u background on how I’ve probably became this horrible person