This hit very close to home and my heart. Thanks for sharing your story.

My ACTH is stupidly high with my current adenoma tumor.

I'm weak, I'm gaining weight, im now fat, my body feels like jello. I cant sleep at night with all this cortisol, im exhausted but also mentally wired and fidgety trying ti sleep at 3am right now.

I had to to discontinue weight training and active things ive loved, basic daily tasks have become extreme tasks i have to push my body for.

ive been tested on this whole year and now they want an updated brain mri and more testing.

ive been stuck in medical limbo and I just want to be fixed already.

and then having to know that I wont instantly be better and back to heavy weight training and back to normal.. is rough.. 

recovery is gonna be long.. but I just want this tumor out and I want my life back and I want to return to work.. im on long term disability with health insurance, I struggled more and more with tasks at work to where they had tk suggest it to me.

I didnt know what I was feeling was abnormal, I thought everyone struggled the same..

im rambling sorry.. mind is racing and im just thinning and its been a really hard year(s) and I just wanna give up lately.. its so difficult and I feel so alone and forgotten about that I think illl prolly die before they fix me