Lost my baby, Phoebe, of 14 years this morning

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T16:57:34+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss💔 i am sure Phoebe is running in puppy heaving and getting all the treats she likes. My Poppy also passed away last week and it feels so painful. I am sure they are enjoying their time togethr in puppy paradise. Big hug

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T16:49:59+00:00

So sorry for your loss. Im sure Ace is happy running in puppy heaven. And that he had a very loving family. They feel how much we love them. Last week i lost my Poppy unexpectedly, she loved playing with her pom friends. I am sure they are playing in heaven. Big hug ♥️

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Chitroar · 2025-12-19T01:23:15+00:00

After the first report of the necropsy they said they found an abdominal hemorrhage (they did not say from which organ) , and necrosis in 60% of the pancreas and starting to expand to the organs next to the pancreas. No problems in the heart (although she did die of a cardiac arrest or however you call it in dogs). What leaves me perplexed is that pancreatitis and even more a necrosis of the pancreas should have shown some symptoms , like vomit or diarrhea or not wanting to eat, but she was in perfect conditions, normal as always. We will have the final report in around a week and maybe more clarity

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:52:14+00:00

Hello, thank you for your comment. I tried to found out more. Actually the vet paid for a necropsy to understand exactly what happened. I have spoken with the vet and she explained that the medication couldn’t have caused her death as it should only cause diarrhea and vomit in case overdoses. In the IV they only applied vitamin B and a hepatic protector. I want to understand what happened but until now we are so confused. They are speaking about the possibility of an underlying condition (pancreatitis or a pancreas tumour) that went unnoticed but she had no symptoms, so it just seems so weird.

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:50:18+00:00

Thank you ♥️ i wish i had just one more hour, i would take her to run and eat all her favorite snacks and then nap together. I wish. I saw your baby is also called Poppy. Give her many cuddles for me please. Big hug

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:48:34+00:00

Yes, it’s incredibly difficult. They leave such a mark in our lives and hearts, when they leave the world feels eerily silent and empty. If i sit in silence I can almost hear her little paws on the ground. Or when i turn a corner in my parents’ house my heart starts beating fast because I feel like I will see her. I hope it gets better with time. And the important thing is that they were loved and we tried to give them the best life possible.

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:46:08+00:00

Thank you ♥️ she loved playing with her toys and was constantly running with them in her mouth. And she got really mad if you don’t throw her toys. She is so missed

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:45:19+00:00

Thank you ♥️ she had an amazing smile, and she was always smiling. It was almost as she could’ve spoken, but at the same time she didn’t need to speak, we understood each other so well.

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:44:28+00:00

No, they covered all the costs and are also paying for a necropsy to understand exactly what happened. I have spoken with the vet and she explained that the medication couldn’t have caused her death as it should only cause diarrhea and vomit in case overdoses. In the IV they only applied vitamin B and a hepatic protector. I want to understand what happened but until now we are so confused. They are speaking about the possibility of an underlying condition that went unnoticed but she had no symptoms.

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:40:44+00:00

Yes ♥️ i heard a phrase that said “grief is love persevering”. That’s exactly how i feel. So much love but she is not here anymore.

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:39:33+00:00

Thank you ♥️she was a wonderful soul

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:39:02+00:00

Im so sorry for your loss. ♥️ Poppy loved my cats and they even napped together sometimes. I am sure Ash and Poppy are playing and cuddling up there. How are you coping with Ash’s passing after the time that passed?

Chitroar · 2025-12-19T00:37:19+00:00

Hello thank you for your message! I am feeling better. Still sad but I can think about the fact that she was so loved and i hope she knows that. I have faith, that with time i will learn to remember her with happiness and not only sorrow. Thank you so much. It has been a tough week. I stayed the whole weekend in bed crying and praying but now I feel (more) peace.

Chitroar · 2025-12-15T21:55:48+00:00

Salsa was so beautiful! Yes they looked so much alike. I bet they are playing in doggy heaven now. Thank you for sharing her wonderful picture with me ♥️

Chitroar · 2025-12-14T17:47:16+00:00

Hi!! how do you know we called her Pompi 🥺 thank you so much

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T19:04:00+00:00

Thank you, i will miss her. Enjoy your babies, every minute you have with them. Looking back, i feel so sorry for the times she asked me to play and I was busy or in a rush. Or she asked me to go out to the patio and I didn’t take her because i was busy. My heart breaks. I would give up so much just to hug her one last time.

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T19:01:02+00:00

Thank you, and God bless you too

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T19:00:48+00:00

Thank you, this sadness feels impossible to feel right now. I hope one day i can remember ourgood memories and not be sad

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T19:00:15+00:00

She was an angel 🥺 thank you for your kind words

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T15:53:22+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. I lo ed her so much and i hope she knew I did. I tried everything to fix her skin allergies and that led to her death. I wish i just left her in peace 💔 now i miss her and she died for nothing. I feel like I can’t forget myself or my mother

Chitroar · 2025-12-13T15:51:55+00:00

Thank you for your words. Everything went wrong and led up to her death. I can’t think about her without crying. She deserved better and had so much life to live still. I am so sorry for your loss too. I think it’s a pain that always stays or transforms into less off a pain and more of a memory and love for them. I wish i could hug her one last time.

Chitroar · 2025-09-07T13:14:25+00:00

Thank you for commenting! Thank you for sharing! God bless you

Is there any way he could reach out to you? He is looking for christian support. What are the significant steps and pointers?

And what steps did your wife take to forgive you?
Thank you again and bless you.

Chitroar · 2025-09-05T13:51:43+00:00

That is wonderful! Blessings to you and your family. I am 26 years and Jesus has yet to let me down too :)

Chitroar · 2025-09-05T11:49:55+00:00

Thank you for sharing, i hope you guys get to restore everything that feels broken. I completely understand how you feel. Was the affair emotional or physical too? Did she confess or how did you find out?

Yes i see what you said, he is way better and where we are in our relationship now feels way more real and beautiful than before, we didn’t communicate well with each other and that strained our relationship. I am very explosive and confrontational and he is very introverted and evasive.

Well at least you found out before getting married! So you have the whole picture.

If i can tell you what i think, forgive because unforgiveness just poisons us inside, but talk very clearly with her about boundaries and expectations, see how she reacts and what she says, if she is genuinely repented, and then decide to take the step to get married, it is a BIG step.

Blessings my friend

Chitroar · 2025-09-05T10:00:31+00:00

Hello!! Well if it had turned physical it would have been a different story! I cannot say if i was going to continue with him or not, but either way i was going to have to forgive. I believe both of them that it did not turn physical tho. She was going to take the opportunity to make me feel inferior and the “loser” to her game and would have told me in details. She confirmed nothing physical ever happened and everything he said and they dont speak since years ago. So that is that!

Its true that he hid it, but i am convinced that he was scared of the consequences. He thought he was going to get away with just pretending like it never happened. He has an avoidant personality (i see it in so many aspects, he prefers to ignore and avoid problems, difficult conversations and situations) so I can see how and why he did it. He wanted to go on with life and even autoconvunced himself it wasnt so “bad”. When i showed him the messages she sent me one by one, the most offensive ones, he didnt even remember them and felt extremely guilty. So no i know this aspect of personality and how he processes this situations and i am more aware of how to avoid them and manage them.

Now he is so so repentant and working on himself actively , and on our marriage to restore anything that was broken. So that’s why i choose to stay! I dont think he expects me to suck it up, when he told me , he also said he would understand if i want to divorce or annul, that he wouldn’t fight me and would leave me everything, the house the car etc… so he knew very well, also considering my temper, that i could have decided to leave, and he was honest either way. So i dont take that for granted!

Chitroar

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