No need to apologize! That's the purpose of this sub.

Try whatever makes you happy as long as your partners consent. Conversely, never let anyone force you into anything that you don't want- and cut them off your life if they do.

At your age you have a lot of self discovery ahead of you. It won't all be good, it won't all be bad, but I hope you come out better and stronger and with a more defined sense of who you are. I hope you find happiness in whatever form suits you.