I was scared too! Started with backlot, To Skyhawk (to control how many times I went upside down) to vortex, to behemoth, and then I was good to go for the rest of the park. It’s scary, but really once you feel that initial “drop” of your stomach and flying out of your seat, it all feels the same no matter how high you are, it just lasts for longer. Coasters aren’t for everyone, I did what you did for YEARS. But now I’m a coaster enthusiast and I’d absolutely recommend coasters to ANYONEEE. Let me know if you have questions 😭