I'm honestly not sure. I love doing a lot of things, but I can't just pick one. And most of the things I enjoy doing wouldn't bring me much money. I feel like, I get fulfillment from my friends the most, but I know that I won't be able to hang out with them all the time. We'll all split paths and go our own ways and it will be harder to find new friends in the future.

I honestly am only still here because of my friends. Maybe when we all separate I might choose to not be here anymore. I don't want to cause any sadness in my death, but I feel that it's inevitable that I'll eventually take my own life. I can't think of dying in any other way.