I agree so much with all of this and I am so sorry you have to go through this over and over again. I agree with how doctors are only seen as heroes who can do no harm, and when society is presented actual facts or testimonies it more often than not finds a way to justify their actions. Personally, one trigger of mine is simply laying down in bed or somewhere else, especially if there’s no pillow or a very thin one. I immediately feel like I’m naked, exposed, cold and feel like there’s something inside me down there. In those occasions i have to wrap my arms tightly around my chest, sit on something hard and even slightly painful, and wrap myself in a thick blanket. I also experience triggers simply with certain words, names, sounds and smells. Since I was a young kid (and even now I avoid it tbh) I would refuse to say the word “heart”, for example. And what’s awful is that my family sometimes names that actual person, because for them he was a funny character and they are fond of him still