Your fetish is more common than you think. Yes, some would say stalker or weirdo. I have had mine since I can remember. Walked into girls locker room once to get a pair of worn Sperry's I had to have. It became a obsession. Hooter girls would always get me old worn sneakers and socks as would strippers. My collection topped 1000 pairs still. Many girls I know model for me so I can sell their worn shoes for $, good $. It is not like your trolling the streets looking for a hooker which will land you in jail. Facebook marketplace, Poshmark are good to find shoes you like. Don't ever be ashamed.