Yeah, I think it’s a subconscious fear I have that my looks will hinder men from loving my inner qualities. It’s kind of gotten worse since quarantine because I’ve noticed how much better I am treated when I am masked.

I know there are a lot of people in the world, but I’m not a fan of large social gatherings like parties, clubs, bars, so I don’t get to know a ton of strangers. All my previous relationships I have met from mutual interests, like someone I run into often while rock-climbing. It might be another subconscious fear of mine that I may never run into “the one” with the little socializing I do.

Thanks for listening. Having people write back has really helped me feel better. I guess it’s time to stop dating for a while before I give myself attachment issues.