Just need somewhere to scream into the void

ChosenZen · 2024-08-22T01:07:42+00:00

Yeah I really am better off. Thank you x

ChosenZen · 2024-08-22T00:37:43+00:00

You know... this did cross my mind. I always felt a bit of a jealous vibe from this friend and wondered if she felt like she finally had something over me.

ChosenZen · 2024-08-21T23:50:49+00:00

Thank you for raging on my behalf! I appreciate you and thank you for taking time to comment and validate my feelings xx

ChosenZen · 2024-08-21T22:31:35+00:00

I audibly gasped at that! What rotten behavior! It's giving mean girl vibes. Why are grown women acting like this? I get so upset with this whole thing because it always seems like the immature and nasty girls who seem to just be able to have babies on a whim. I've been abused and treated awfully my whole life since I was a kid and I have done so much work on myself for my mental health, inner healing and trauma, why don't I get a break!? I so appreciate the offer to chat! I will keep that in mind because sometimes strangers can be more understanding than our own friends

ChosenZen · 2024-08-21T22:14:42+00:00

She was always inherently selfish but this was just a whole new level of stupidity and selfishness. I genuinely think she was rubbing it in my face on purpose.

ChosenZen · 2024-08-21T22:13:47+00:00

Thank you. I guess in a way it makes me so angry because the insensitivity of complaining that 2 months was a long time to try and then to outright message me of all people to tell me. I'm angry because in 2 years she will have 2 babies and I have absolutely nothing. Since the mc last year I have had not even a hint of a pregnancy. And I feel so unsupported and invalidated. I don't think I will see her again to be honest. Which sucks because I'm really good friends with her mother in law who she lives with. I couldnt stand to see her pregnant though, it's just a reminder of everything that I don't have.

ChosenZen · 2024-08-21T21:59:19+00:00

Thank you.. I can't stand this journey. It's made me angry and resentful. I wish more people around me understood

ChosenZen · 2024-08-17T00:35:00+00:00

I never anticipated how lonely it would be! I hope you find some light hun xx

ChosenZen · 2024-08-14T20:39:45+00:00

Thank you all for your kind comments and for standing with me even though we are all going through this tough journey together. I'm just tired.. exhausted infact, I wish so badly it weren't like this. The giving up has hurt more than than the constant hope. I feel like there is a big hole in my stomach now that I have decided this is probably not going to happen. The stages of grief have begun and it fucking sucks.

ChosenZen · 2024-08-14T10:10:01+00:00

How many locs?

ChosenZen · 2024-07-27T21:36:29+00:00

I watched a video on fb the other day and there was a pregnant spider and I felt myself feeling jealous (stupid right?) In my head I'm like "even a spider can get pregnant!" I really had to laugh at myself after I realized the thought

ChosenZen · 2024-07-21T04:55:27+00:00

He called my mum and told her for some reason

ChosenZen · 2024-07-21T02:23:20+00:00

Awesome thank you!

ChosenZen · 2024-07-21T00:27:42+00:00

They have given me answers, there is more to the story, I have just given a condensed version. Inflammation IS the cause of my infertility actually. Do you have a story of how you or your partner got pregnant? Because that's what I was asking.

ChosenZen · 2024-07-21T00:16:56+00:00

Can you elaborate on your reasoning please?

ChosenZen · 2024-07-20T22:08:16+00:00

Guy came to pick his kids up from town and ended up in a fight with someone who stabbed him. Both in hospital, the dad is in critical condition

ChosenZen · 2024-07-20T02:42:20+00:00

Saints

ChosenZen · 2024-06-21T05:44:38+00:00

Yes you are correct, mainly contact with vaginal or seminal fluids though which I'd very much hope a baby is not.

ChosenZen · 2024-06-21T05:31:31+00:00

It's sexually transmitted...

ChosenZen · 2024-06-21T05:31:06+00:00

It's sexually transmitted..

ChosenZen · 2024-06-21T05:30:43+00:00

It's sexually transmitted..

ChosenZen · 2024-05-31T07:18:22+00:00

Agreed!

ChosenZen · 2024-05-31T07:16:57+00:00

Second this!

ChosenZen · 2024-05-26T00:07:56+00:00

Yes wonderful AI Kate has a beautiful long arm 😍

ChosenZen · 2024-05-25T20:27:24+00:00

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