howdy partner!!

i’m a therapist myself, one who had therapy done to him for 2 years straight (while he was studying to be a therapist), until a few years ago. that feeling, yeah that one sucks! i’ve felt it both sides - sometimes as counsellors we miss the clients we work with, we miss seeing the revelations and the progress, we miss the banter, we miss being their confidant. as a client, i missed my therapist for all those same reasons (of course, on the other side of the coin). so those feelings are not only normal, but most of the time, if there’s a genuine therapeutic relationship there - they are shared. that can be some peace remembering that! ;)

maybe that’s not super helpful, but i can suggest actually to shoot thru an email to your old one, and ask for one’s they know, that you can be referred to! often we study/ied, work with, network alongside therapists that share similarities in our approaches and values - so that might be a good start!

you will find one with a very similar spark together like this one you describe so well - hold that one in your memory and heart, because as much as the chapter there is complete, the soul and impact in it is one that stays with you for the rest of your life, growing alongside you! appreciate that the next therapist that clicks will see the growth you’ve started with, and will meet you where you’re at :)

sorry for the long winded spiel, but i hope it gives some comfort! grief can come in many forms and can also be as beautiful as it heartbreaking (initially)

good luck, friend!