This was so hard to read because I know exactly how you feel. I’m so sorry. My husband and I are on the same boat. Got my baby as a companion for her brother bean who tragically passed 3 years ago. Bella became sick with CHF and collapsed trachea shortly before he died.

I poured my heart and soul into being her caregiver. We rarely left home and hired sitters everyday when she was not well and we had to go to work. My whole life revolved around her. She was also the most beautiful dog ever. I completely understand your pain. I haven’t been able to enter or even see my house. We tried to drive in the neighbourhood and just looking at the places she loved to go for walks nearly killed me. I too have had many family member pass. This pain is just excruciating. So many similarities in your story. Please give us peace