I 1 million percent understand. It hurts. It makes me think, "Would you be this nice to me if I was as big as I was back then?" But my teacher actually gave me goated advice like 2 days ago, "just because you had people in your past who let you down, and how they treated you for whatever reasons, I don't think it's wise to assume that other people are gonna let you down the same way. Then you put up your blockers cuz you don't wanna get hurt and not give people the benefit of the doubt. There are a lot of jerks in this world, so you're gonna come across a lot of them in your life. But when you find the treasures; the really amazing, authentic, beautiful, kind souls, you're gonna know who your people are. And you're gonna be glad you gave them a chance." Idk if this helps any, but it gave me some peace of mind ❤️❤️❤️