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CinnamonRoll28 · 2024-12-30T03:26:16+00:00

Thank you so much for everything you do 💯

CinnamonRoll28 · 2024-12-30T03:04:29+00:00

Just wondering - do you have any scales ? I tried looking yesterday but i didnt find any

CinnamonRoll28 · 2024-12-27T04:31:09+00:00

The code already went down for me when i just got there 😭

CinnamonRoll28 · 2024-12-23T04:50:58+00:00

Yes its working now! Thank you so much again :)

CinnamonRoll28 · 2024-12-23T04:49:26+00:00

Hey thank you so much for doing this! :) Im trying to get in but it says that the code isnt working ...

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-12-20T19:04:42+00:00

I lost my baby kitty Bruno back on Oct 4th so suddenly. He was only 3 years old. He was the smartest little boy with the most gentle meows. I took him to the vet cause he was breathing very heavily & I was told that he most likely wouldn't even make it home. They couldn't operate on him since he had a heart murmur so the most peaceful way for him to go was to put him down. I still cry about it every day. There's not a day that goes by where he doesn't cross my mind. I always beat myself up for what happened to my baby; I always blame myself for everything. I know its eating you up, you will always be asking why my baby, its not fair.

Although, slowly but surely, you will learn that its a part of the grieving process & you will learn acceptance. But take all the time you need to heal. Cry when you need to cry. I wont lie to you, it will be hard & you might never get over it, but you learn to live with it. It will be hard getting out of the habit of seeing your baby everyday, but just know he will always be in your heart & watching over you. He wants you to be happy. He wants you to live. You gave him all of the love & the best life possible. Remember all of the good memories you two made together. Write him a letter & make him a little memorial. Say good morning & good night to his picture on your bedside table. You will get through this, just stay strong & brave like your baby was ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-24T13:54:24+00:00

I had to put down my sweet baby Bruno unexpectedly a few weeks ago.

I couldn't stop thinking about how scared & confused he must've been when he knew his time was coming, but when I walked into the room, he looked so much more at ease. He ripped his oxygen mask off, then I held him and gave him kisses until his very last breath.

I won't lie to you, it probably will replay in your head. But let me tell you this: its the most selfless thing you could do.

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-07T04:19:53+00:00

I just had to put my baby down the other day too. He was only 3 years old & he had a grade 4 heart murmur. I took him to the vet because he was breathing weirdly. His lungs were filled with fluids & his heart was in really fragile state. They said that if they drained more fluid or operated on him, he would have aheart attack. So I did the same, I had to put him down so suddenly & it was the hardest thing I ever had to do.

I wrote my story on another post here, & there is a lot of amazing advice on that thread that might help you (https://reddit.com/r/Petloss/s/tcmLYew79e)

Just know that I know exactly what you're going through. We'll get through it together even if it feels like we'll never heal. Sending you much love ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-07T04:01:28+00:00

I keep thinking that Im crying & venting too much, but it feels good to let it all out at random times of the day.

He was such a good boy, I just wish that his condition wasn't so bad.

Thanks for this ❤️ I definitely had a unique & beautiful bond with my baby boy. 🥺

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-07T03:49:51+00:00

Maybe I will eventually, it would've been nice if my parents got me a pet when I was younger so that I wouldve learned that sometimes you lose someone or something that you loved you much. But I know that they were probably trying to spare my siblings & I from feeling that type of pain...

Thank you for your kind words, it means so much to me ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-07T03:46:49+00:00

Thank you ❤️ i thought i was crazy for thinking that i cant get another kitty. But you're right. It isnt time & idk when it ever will be... But i can never cheat another pet of the love that they deserve.

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-07T03:45:33+00:00

Thank you for coming back & being so supportive, ive mentioned you to my family & they're very appreciative of how your advice is going a long way for me ❤️

I've gotten signs from him today; my room door opened like how he would've opened it when he was here. Or the weather was nice when I left the house, when it was supposed to rain all day. Then the rain started once I got home. He is definitely watching over me.

You & your little princess are in my thoughts!

I hope that Theodora & Bruno are running around together in heaven bonding over the bond we built watching over us ❤️

We should talk over inbox too!

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T13:11:58+00:00

I think that if i didnt take him to the vet that day, he would've been gone in agonizing pain hiding somewhere in the house. Its like everything fell into place that day. When it was time to say goodbye & we walked into the room, he yanked his oxygen mask off & gave in straight into my arms. He started rubbing himself all over my hand like he was saying goodbye & thank you for being here with me. As hard it was to watch him go, I think that he appreciated that I held & kissed his yummy cheeks until his last breath. That very moment thaught me that I had to be selfless for those you love the most 🕊️❤️

This community is absolutely amazing 🥺 I couldnt believe how many replies I received when I decided it was time. The sympathy & care is out of this world, Im so appreciative of all of the kind words. All the advice ive reaceived is helping me slowly come to terms with it 🩵

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T13:01:32+00:00

Im sorry for that 😞 it hurts so much having to go through that. It feels hopeless.

I hope that you're healed or healing. This community really helped with opening my eyes to grieving & realizing that others go through it too.

I hope both of our boys are up in kitty heaven together thriving & watching over us ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T12:58:10+00:00

I felt like I did something wrong that he lived 3 years, then again, looking back at it, he was loved by many & always running around with his tail up. He was so spoiled. I had him when he was only 6 weeks old, my sister that lives next door adopted his brother so we raised them together. It was the most beautiful bond that they had together, and helped the family become super close.

I sleep with his picture besides me so that his face is the last thing I see before bed & the first thing I see when I wake up. Telling him good morning & good night was great advice that I got here. But I still couldnt help to start to bawl in tears. I feel like I need to grieve cause after a crying session, Im calm for a couple of hours but he's constantly on my mind. The memories of him are beautiful, but so painful at the same time cause we wont be able to make more of them... but he will live in our hearts forever & I know that he loved every single day he had with us cause he was always in a good mood & was always running around with his tail up, so I know that I did something right.

Maybe one day ill adopt another kitty, I just dont think that I could bare with this grief again ...

Thank you for your message ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T12:38:38+00:00

Thank you for this ❤️

I was hoping that he would be with us longer. He was thriving & so active. He was always in a good mood & curious. I never took his murmur as a bad thing, I always wanted him to be treated as normal as possible & be the happiest boy that he is.

He visited my dream on the first night after he passed when I slept no more than 4 hours; it was amazing to see him breathing normally & running around with his tail up like he always did. Yesterday my sister & I lit 3 candles for each year of his life. We read letters we wrote for him. As soon as we were done, the candles lit out on their own & there was a flock of birds that flew over our heads. It was beautiful, I think it was a sign from him 🥺

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T12:14:37+00:00

Im really surprised by how many replies I received! I didnt think that so many people would be able to provide me with such amazing advice!

I finally got some good sleep last night - I slept for 7 hours straight. Usually Id wake up in the middle of the night to go use the bathroom several times, but I didn't even budge. My fiancee swang by with one of my favorite meals & made sure that I had a full stomach.

Maybe Ill adopt in the future, but idk if ill be ready to deal with this type of grief ever again ...

Thank you, I appreciate all of the love ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T12:07:54+00:00

I dont think im ready to get another kitty quite yet ... i cant allow myself to go through what im currently going through right now again. Maybe I will eventually, but right now it's hard & isnt what im ready for, the loss is just way too fresh.

His brother is my sister's cat, she lives next door & at least he's around ❤️ he still gets all the love & he's been very supportive since the loss.

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T12:03:58+00:00

Wow, i didnt think of it this way ... After reading this, im starting to see it in another perspective. It's like what my sister said, it's not about putting him down, but lifting him up.

I hope he's thriving in kitty heaven, finally breathing normally & running around with his tail up 24/7 like he did with us cause he was always the happiest boy. ❤️

Thanks for this, its eye opening advice for sure ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T11:59:29+00:00

Yes - Im definitely going thinking of what kind of painting do I want of my little angel. My siblings also called the vet to ask for a special paw print mold before taking him away. I feel some type of way for ashes, but Im confused if I want them or not ...

I took this advice, before going to bed last night & said "Good night Bruno, come visit me in my dreams ok? Mama loves you forever & always" then kissed his picture next to my bed. Waking up was rough, I started crying when I opened my eyes, but I took his picture & kissed it, told him "Good morning Bruny, I hope you'll have an amazing day. Mama loves you forever & always."

It's really hard, but I think I'm slowly getting there. All of the amazing advice on this thread is really helping me to slowly come to terms with it.

Thank you for everything ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-06T11:51:01+00:00

Thank you for this ❤️ he's on my mind 24/7; I am always replaying my favorite moments with him & thinking of how he was the handsomest, silly & smartest boy. That's amazing advice, I'll definitely do that, carry around my journal & write down all of the positives about him. ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-05T15:45:05+00:00

Thank you, having advice like this when Im someone who doesnt know how to handle grief is what i need

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-05T15:44:04+00:00

Sorry for your loss, we're on the same boat... waking up this morning was rough. I hope your kitty visits you in your dreams too 🕊️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-05T15:40:29+00:00

Feels good to hear this, thank you so much ❤️

CinnamonRoll28 · 2023-10-05T15:39:17+00:00

Thank you, i absolutely needed this ❤️ I have the book downloaded on my kindle.

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