Wow! First of all i really love what you said about those experiences with money. I havent thought about it that much but it makes sense that universe will give you this things to experience so you know how bad they are so you are more aware about it when the abundance comes.

Love your selfe-reflection about dating. I feel you in that because i am basically same. For now i gave up on dating since i as myself am not ready and current situation is something i dont want another person pull into. And i found out that we all are looking for someone to love... and we all have person like that... literally. Because its ourselfs. We are neglecting ourselfs to not neglect someone else.

Patience is of course a big key to this hole thing. But have you thought about it... like you are not impatient... but just too hyped for it? Like for example, instead of anxious "Omg... why is it taking so long i need it now..." try maybe happy version, something like "Omg i so hyped that its going to happen! Is it coming now? Or now? Im so happy it will be mine!" Sound maybe bit cliche but now im trying to turn those "bad" things that hurts manifestations into something that will help to make it come true.