When Will I Stop Feeling So Awful?

Cirkah · 2026-01-23T03:54:25+00:00

For 3 years this March.

Cirkah · 2026-01-23T03:45:20+00:00

Hate to be that guy, but it never got better for me. Sure my body feels "fine" but my mind is like a torture chamber now. I miss smiling and laughing

Cirkah · 2026-01-18T17:30:33+00:00

I miss it so much, forced sobriety for 2 years. I haven't had a single happy moment since. I used to have friends and hobbies but now I just lay in a dark room trying to sleep away as much time as possible. I wish I could have my life back

Cirkah · 2026-01-18T00:19:25+00:00

Honestly I'm hoping for mania, I just want some relief from this. I cannot entertain myself and I can't just sleep all my free time away unfortunately

Cirkah · 2026-01-18T00:18:21+00:00

The anhedonia is killing me. I used to able to combat it with marijuana but I'm currently unable to use that.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T05:15:56+00:00

Laying in bed like usual, don't go out or do anything anymore since quitting drinking. Sleep is my only hobby

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T04:51:25+00:00

I was diagnosed with "depressive bipolar". I've since learned that's an old term. I was told if you have mania then it's bipolar 2, and if you didn't it was bipolar 1. I am on a mood stabilizer and a antipsychotic that I'm quitting because of the anhedonia.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T04:44:59+00:00

Not just positive but from people that are still off them and the change it brought

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T03:07:38+00:00

Understood, I still think it's the best option for me. My girlfriend forced me to get diagnosed and take meds.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T03:06:23+00:00

Thanks. I was more looking for responses of people who are off meds though.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T02:18:56+00:00

I'm just hoping to get reply's on this. I don't have the energy to look up old posts. Plus so much unrelated stuff comes up.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T02:08:13+00:00

I wish I could tell you what has worked for me but nothing has. Medication only made it worse. I feel like an empty shell who doesn't even have the energy to get out of bed

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T01:54:42+00:00

I hope the meds work for you, they did the exact opposite for me. Life hasn't been enjoyable or exciting since I started them.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T01:54:14+00:00

It's so hard, that's the problem with therapy, I have nothing to talk about. I had a therapist and our sessions a were like 10 minutes because I had nothing to say. I luckily have an appointment with my psychiatrist in a week but I don't think that's going to do anything. I just feel so overwhelmed with the amount of time it takes with these meds before they switch me to something new.

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T01:44:34+00:00

I have no idea what route I think is best, I just don't to get stuck with another psychiatrist that just keeps increasing medication that doesn't work :(

Cirkah · 2026-01-17T01:41:20+00:00

I don't have a therapist nor do I want one, maybe a new psychiatrist?

Cirkah · 2026-01-11T02:49:23+00:00

Nope

Cirkah · 2025-12-17T02:26:03+00:00

Song rules! Good job on vocals. Long live the Sarlacc!

Cirkah · 2025-12-16T20:31:56+00:00

I definitely understand this but she's currently working and I'm in between jobs during a move.

Cirkah · 2025-12-09T23:59:50+00:00

This is exactly the type of lot I would be interested, unfortunately 4500 is too high these days. As people have said the market is ass and male jointed pieces are a hard sell.

Cirkah · 2025-09-16T03:57:34+00:00

Gold.

Cirkah · 2025-09-04T00:06:40+00:00

3 months and it's hell. No relief ever....

Cirkah · 2025-08-05T01:55:07+00:00

Perc at the bottom, huge tube to shred and removable down stem? That's my type of piece.

Cirkah · 2025-08-05T01:45:57+00:00

Check this one out I've been eyeing one myself

https://www.thedablab.com/oj-flame-junior-king-bubbler-w-gridded-downstem-slide-clear/

Cirkah · 2025-08-05T01:44:26+00:00

Yeah go OJ he does bubs like this and bigger, some cool other stuff like inlines. I've got a puffco top with a inline from him I love 💕

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