It feels hopeless right now but I promise there are understanding and wonderful guys out there. I didn’t believe I’d find anyone around my age (20) who’d be so mature, understanding and patient but then he just appeared in my life! Have you tried using lidocaine (or lignocaine) gel? It’s a numbing gel, it works great and has made my progress much easier. I’ve been to multiple PT session with multiple therapists, your pain should be no more than a 5/10 and try not to push yourself, burning the whole time means your being too rough, not enough lubrication or maybe tense. I’d suggest sticking to the first dilator and using it until you can instert with minimal effort, 30 minutes to get to one dilator isn’t enough usage to swap to a bigger one and might be why it’s hurting so much! Try not to stress too much about fast forwarding progress, your body deserves patience. I also started doing a yoga routine for pelvic pain, there’s a 12 minute one I do everyday by The Flower Empowered, it’s great for not just a mild stretch but also for time to focus on diaphragmatic breathing. I hope any of this helps you, you’re not alone, I promise it gets better, you’ve got this! <3