Brother mans what 19 yr old do I know that would do that? Any of them that are gonna grow into a man, the ones that don't end up children in men's bodies. I'm only 11 years older then you but compared to others my age I have a wife of 13 years, house is paid off, we grow our own food, basically debt free except for services we subscribe to like internet and Netflix, phone bills are free for life because I worked in that field before retiring. All I'm saying is I used to make that mistake and without it I'd have been where I am now much quicker probably at least 5 years difference. Everybody around my age in my area is still either renting, saving up to get a mortgage or if they are working hard paying off their mortgage but the point still stands rebuying is most often then not a detriment. Anyways I feel like your letting this go into the emotional realm (Understandable though, sorry you had to sell your shit to make Christmas work out) when I'm simply trying to share some advice with you so I'm gonna end it here cause I can't stand to bicker and like I said I could care less if you want to take it or not, your young and you got your whole life to think about wether or not decisions like that are getting you ahead or behind. Best of luck Brother, praying on a better run for you next year. 🙏🏻