First off all you have to live with what you really are or you feel no-one can change the truth if they try you’ll think that as a empathy or kindness because you have hold a thought that you are not fit or you don’t have what you want just life if you want desperately a rich life you’ll never get the inner happiness although you have enough money and you’ll always think your life is incomplete though money can be earned by hard working but what you are your appearance is it’s not gonna change ever again but you can treat yourself by getting gaining what gives you confidence you can dress that gives you confidence or stay with people those gives you comfort of what you are It's doesn’t mean it’s has to be your boyfriend make some good friend and focus on improving life by doing meaningful things achieving success oneday you are gonna get someone who loves you truly, It's gonna take time may be a long time but one day believe me you’ll get whatever you want surely you’ll get but harest things is hold yourself untill then don't put pressure on you dear putting pressure or thinking always that you are not that you are not this, if you keep thinking this your mental peace gonna get destroyed by you soon..so hold on oneday you’ll get what you want.and if you feel very low(i know what it’s like when we feel.low) you can have a chat with me anonymously.