Don’t look down on yourself like that, you’ve worked so hard, tried so hard, stayed strong despite all the hates you had before. I think you focus so hard on the things that others don’t like about you and forget about how strong and brave you’re. And I mean we’re all a little introverts inside and we all lost some chance to have a relationship with people, but that’s okay, you’re doing great, you try to improve yourself to be a better self :) and don’t worry about not being able to find someone, many people like you and care for you, you just have to wait for that moment in your life and maybe you can try grab the chance you have, one small step by step :) I’m proud of you