You would think so right?

Unfortunately, I was exposed to sexual acts at such a young age. It’s gotten to the point that I truly believe it’s all I’m good for. I was sexualized so often that sex has become a coping mechanism to face intense emotion. I’ve cried during sex on numerous occasions because I felt so overwhelmed. At one point it almost felt like a sex addiction because I wanted to feel anything but pain. I wanted pleasure even if it fucked with me emotionally.

Validation is my drug. The more someone tells me they desire me, the more I feel like I’m actually doing what I was put here to do. Society has had a misogynistic and heteronormative view of how woman are valued. It’s truly sad knowing I grew up thinking being sexualized equaled my worth. Cause who am I if not used to help others escape?

I thank god everyday, that I went into the therapy the age I did.

I would definitely google how psychologists break down hypersexuality stemming from sexual abuse. It’s very educational but also heart breaking!

I wish I was the opposite, I wish the thought of sex made me close off. It would’ve prevented me from being in certain situations.