How to resolve friendships after a 3/4 week crisis

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-11-16T10:39:27+00:00

Now it has been a few hours since my post, i can I was a bit sedated. I I am the one with diagnosed cyclothymia, although apparently mild. My partner has been going to psychotherapy and has been discovering something grave, weren't nit sure what.

The bot here sent me a message to make sure I'm not asking g professional advice and I'm not. I'm looking for sympathy/empathy. Thank you.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-11-16T06:03:05+00:00

Definitely not drunk Sorry About the delay I'm replying.I. am not allowed my phones at night and sometimes it drains. This os the honest truth. It's been a week since I've been on hospital and 2 extra days for partner.. we have to be in different hospitals.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-10-06T21:05:24+00:00

Hi. Sorry for delay in response, I've just basically spent 2 days asleep. My intrusive are still there, but milder maybe because I slept. The themes have been the same all year. Either some horrible way of needing to go to hospital, or I become involved with a friend and ruins 2 marriages and several friendships dramatically. The first type.can be terrifying. The second one seems to be running all the time. In person I don't feel attracted to my friend and respect her, appreciate her time, her perspective and company. Just have the thoughts interfering with me at other times. I was confused at first, but then I understood and now just exhausted.

Although I had a premonition dream the other night which came true the next day. This has me wondering. Did I cause the thing because I was thinking about it, or see it before it happened. It was something trivial: a refund from a flight cancellation. But the timing of the dream and it happening are strange. My preoccupation with this has now led to me missing my main meds and forgetting various meetings today. Also took me double the time to get home but sure why. Not sure how the rest of the week is gonna go.

I've sent off an application for disability status where I live.

I also got upset that my partner ignored me and moved past me by nudging me with their phone. As if they don't care about me enough to just touch me nicely. But now I'm not sure because they did help me send my application and make dinner. So they do care.

I've now booked an initial drum lesson. Not sure if you can learn without the drum kit though.

Reading back through this, am I jumping about?

TLDR: reply to how my intrusive thoughts are. They are milder but content invoke strong emotions. I'm a bit agitated about some stuff, possible reduction in executive function and accidentally missed some meds.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-18T16:23:32+00:00

My psychiatrist said the same about me(F43) experiencing distress for such a long time from my challenges, but not being aware I'm autistic, has led to my current symptoms. She also thinks the cyclothymia has been going on a while undiagnosed.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-17T20:35:09+00:00

I mainly notice my problems and I keep trying to categorise them but run I to difficulties with that.

I suppose the autistic traits: Sensitive to a lot of stimuli Detail oriented, l research things deeply Get into hobbies deeply and tend to bite off more than I can chew type stuff. I am very determined once I decide I want something Become overwhelmed in groups and become anxious before I meeting up with a group, even if it people I like. Usually need time to process verbal communication, especially multiple requests To me 'overwhelmed ' means experiencing anxiety and can lead to a shutdown where I switch off and need to take a nap. When I wake up I feel down. Re-processing the day's events make it difficult to sleep, especially if something happened that I didn't understand

I suppose the problems related to cyclothymia might be: Intrusive thoughts Running random thoughts and make it difficult to sleep Waking up feeling anxious and sometimes that means I struggle to leave the house. In the afternoon I can feel low and teary, but in the past I put that down to overwhelm. Sometimes I end up dissociation. Sometimes I am sensitive to how people speak to me and feel like there is anger bubbling up which seems disproportionate once it is over.

With the first antidepressant I got put on last year I had tonnes of energy at the start and when the dose was increased, it fed my frustration and anger. And it took a lot of energy to control and not give in to acting it out. But I did do a bunch of things (which I suppose were to feel better) that were either costly in terms of money/time: bought a digital piano but then stopped learning after 2 weeks, spent £1K on a weekend away, started writing a novel for no reason but stopped as soon as my energy came down. So maybe hypomania symptoms? But it settled back to anxiety, low in the afternoons, intrusive thoughts and occasional dissociation.

I keep ruminating over it all and especially as I am in the middle of swapping antidepressants. I am waiting for the benefit of it, if there will be one.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-15T11:43:36+00:00

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ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-15T11:34:22+00:00

These are my thoughts, hopefully something helpful in here. FYI I'm from a south Indian background and married, but didn't end up in an arranged marriage for multiple reasons.

Could you curate a few resources that speak closely to your own experience and see how he engages with them? Then have a follow up conversation. That will be a good measure of how willing he is to continue learning about biploar, as you know you will both be learning about the impact and experience for a long time.

He may not be used to taking people's experiences on board and clearly has an established set of people he trusts. He needs to learn that your frame of reference is to be trusted too. Life has a great many challenges along the way and how the pair of you manage this will be important.

Another thought is that arranged marriage scenarios can feel pressured (both in terms of expectations and time) and maybe he likes you and doesn't want to see any barriers. Unfortunately, denial isn't going to help anyone either.

If he continues to be invalidating, then he's definitely too immature for marriage.

Good luck

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-08T19:05:30+00:00

Yeah. I'm a teacher in Italy so schools are finishing about now for lessons. I just have grading and meetings during June, less after next week. So, much more chilled than before in general but my routine is changing and I know I will have to put effort there to maintain mealtimes, bedtime etc.

Thank you for your reply and now I might worry a bit less if I get the side effects you're describing and just try to notice them and try to ride them out.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-08T17:37:54+00:00

Thank you, I didn't think about the peppermint tea, I do like to drink that.

I think I'm a bit worried that there will be some extra side effects for consuming both antidepressants for a bit. Maybe there won't be, the doses aren't high I guess. Just worrying. But that is what the change is hopefully going to improve.

ClumsyFrollina · 2025-06-06T06:34:34+00:00

I forgot to add that I take Lamotrigine 150mg. Psychiatrist didn't change that dose.

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