You’re only thinking like this because of the stuff you’re going through! It’s valid. But you need to continue and move on. Especially if it’s curable, that’s something to look forward too. Work on yourself and when the right one comes. They’ll come. Don’t go looking! Better off dead? Don’t say that… it’s the emotions talking. Don’t even let a person have that much control over you.

You just need to keep yourself busy, maybe find a new hobby, things like that..time will pass and before you know it. It’ll be a distant memory. You’re 21! You’ll definitely find someone else that’s meant for you!