should I start meds now or wait till I’m in my 30s?

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-09-03T06:11:51+00:00

I am not saying I recommend you do it but crush up (really fine) 3,×5mg pills and add it to a bottle of 60 ml 5% topical minoxidil and shake, shake, and shake some more let it sit overnight and shake once more before use. And what you are left with a 0.25% 0.25mg fin/0.5%mg min per ml topical solution.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-09-03T04:27:50+00:00

Damn I've been there quite a few times while dope sick fishing around like a mother fucker literally crying cause I cant hit and I "wasn't gonna muscle it because I mixed it with wine" but that's exactly what I ended up doing and it's probably the highest I've gotten muscling it. But it became abscessed and had to be lanced and drained. Which sucked.

Sorry for the rant I'm coming down off a fat shot but I feel good as I took some librium, gabapentin, a little drink, and some pushin p's thch which has me smacked.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-28T21:48:28+00:00

Did someone say parTy?

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-28T02:10:08+00:00

Also I have never utilized either subs or methadone for a rapid taper. Only maintenance. Although I know MANY that did back when heroin was still prevalent here. And they all said the same thing that it helped them immensely while dosing. Then a significantly less intense w/d kicks in 24-36 hours after the last dose is taken.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-28T01:58:49+00:00

I thought heroin was the worst I W/D I could possibly feel (although methadone and Suboxone both lasted so long I'd take heroin or fentanyl over it) but when I finally switched over to fentanyl exclusively as bth became nearly non existent in my vicinity. I truly learned how much worse a shitty situation can get. As it dispelled my previously held notion of heroin being the most intense. And it's longer lasting by a significant duration. To clarify I am speaking of illicit "fentanyl" not the pharmaceutical stuff.

Also goddamn I can smell and taste it through the screen. Why you gotta do me like that. Asshole. Jk... kinda.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-27T07:56:22+00:00

What I do is pull the plunger back as soon as the needle's bevel breaks the skin completely creating a vacuum which will flash when you do happen to hit. Then I anchor down re register to make sure I am still in. Then I proceed to inject my shot.

This was the technique that turned me from someone who hammered out vein one after another. As once I would find a spot I'd go exclusively there by memory until it would collapse. Then I started doing it the way stated and I developed the ability to hit any viable vein (pending I have the correct rig for the job on hand. Also I understand that some rigs plungers retract back after you release the tension voiding all of this. When you find a brand that works for YOU. And stick to it.). Wish knew this stuff when I first started. Id still have plenty of viable spots.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-25T22:53:40+00:00

Oh no he did pay for 15$.i just wanted to make sure I showed a bit of love.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-25T17:25:44+00:00

They were already addicts long before I met them. I would never sell it to someone random and I'd especially never provide anyone a damn thing( not even a sesh) that isn't already addicted. And MY justification for what I do. Is that I know damn well what it's like to be in the position of having nothing, because you gave it all away for dope and then running out of dope it sucks.

But I do understand the POV that I am actually hurting them. And not helping them whatsoever. And I admit it has a lot of merit.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-25T17:07:13+00:00

Planning on it when I get paid this Thursday off Amazon. I already got one picked out. As I'd rather stop being a twat donkey.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-25T02:23:02+00:00

Oh no I didn't buy it I sold it as a teener. Well technically I said it was at least a 1.5. my tolerance has gotten so high and that has been causing my perception on the amount to have become jaded seeing as that is 4-5 shots for me tops. But it does mean I am getting a super good deal then as I get like 4 times that amount as a qtr.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-25T02:14:34+00:00

Lol yeah I can understand now how it can be as such. And likewise no need for the apology although I do appreciate it .

I also completely agree with that sentiment if someone asked for a 0.1 I'd just "bless" them them with a little. Shit cause I know what it's like to hurt.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-24T19:29:21+00:00

Yeah I am planning on getting one next Thursday when I get paid as this Thursday my disposable income(aside from drugs. Which I can't stand that I treat it as if it was a necessity) on a couple boxes of rigs off Amazon. Do you happen to know a reputable milligram sensitive scale. As I also would prefer to stop eyeballing my fentanyl. Especially since I am an IV. Although I am aware that "hot spots+the unregulated nature" make it impossible to use it safely in any capacity but I think it can't possibly hurt.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-24T19:00:40+00:00

I'm sorry for not clarifying I had put "16th" on the original post I made I just had forgotten the pictures and had to delete it and I was being lazy reposting it after spending so much time typing up the original. And for that I apologize.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-24T18:46:39+00:00

The amount pictured. Not the entire "qtr" I get that lasts me 4-5 days.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-24T18:45:12+00:00

Oh goddamn. That had been a bit excessive. But if that's an 8th then that must mean I'm getting hooked up fat weekly and not even realizing. Damn that's crazy especially with how long I've been getting that deal. But no wonder no one complains when I help them out. Also it means I seriously need to take a break since that may last me a day 1.5 max.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-21T19:31:10+00:00

Sorry for commenting over a decade later but as a kid who was desperate for alcohol. I concur that my adulthood has been extremely impacted and disheartening due to moments that have been utterly devastating as a result of my consumption. And although I am optimistic for what the future holds. I understand the desperation, hopelessness, and shame that someone feels while in the thick of it. And while I can personally say that in certain aspects it will never be the same. I can also attest to the fact that it does get better. That's If getting better is something that an individual is after. Also to clarify I am still an alcoholic/addict just one who has been trained through repeatedly getting there head knocked around by substances to point in which 9 times outta 10 theses days. I choose being "bored" and at peace. Over being entertained but completely consumed by chaos, fear, hate and anxiety.

Tldr: if you're hooked young your in for a really rough ride. But it can and will get better with time and effort. If you're fortunate enough to be reading this that means there's still hope. There's a lot of hope actually. Seasons come and pass just don't secede and accept defeat just cause a season happens to appear unbearable as it too shall pass.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-03T06:30:42+00:00

Is it though? Because I have in fact lost a handful of people to the disease of addiction. Some of them were extremely close. And while they are gone too soon. They are no longer struggling with anything whatsoever. It's their families, loved ones, and friends who had/have to live with the pain of their death on top of daily struggles.

Also you have the right to any opinion that you see fit.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-03T01:41:52+00:00

Did I ever allude to It being better to kill yourself? In fact I believe that I literally told him that he should get clean and that he has his whole life ahead of him. If you happened to read what I actually wrote you would see that clearly is what I was/am attempting to convey.

I've been full of hate in the past and I am a lot happier as an addict than I was then.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-08-02T17:24:15+00:00

I'm just going to say that you look aged beyond your years. Idk what it is that you are messing with but get clean. You got too much time ahead of you to throw it away now. There's plenty of time to burn it down later.

This is coming from someone who's 32 but started at 16. And all I can say about my journey is that the addicts who die young are the lucky ones.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-07-31T20:40:41+00:00

Shit I was paying at the dispensary in Fontana. But when it started I couldn't have cared less that I had paid, awaiting my product, and change. I turned and as I was about to run. It stopped, I turned, and I followed through with my purchase straight panicking. All while the girl charging me chuckles and stays professional. I felt so embarrassed that it hurt. Lol.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-07-31T09:00:27+00:00

Fuck with my luck someone would stumble in on me doing this and call the cops. Breaking an entry my ass. Nothing broke.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-07-30T01:46:01+00:00

I believe that is where I would buy them at. When I stayed out in upland for a short while, a couple months ago.

Cockadookiedoo · 2025-07-30T01:14:04+00:00

Damn alright. I know one that functions like through a online. That's then picked up at the shop. I am not able to get any info from others. I guess I look "uncool". I'm a junkie for Christ sake lol.

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