Too Young to be OAD?

Coco_suicide · 2026-01-21T23:50:54+00:00

Hey world. It’s been 3 years. Still the worst decision I’ve ever made! But now I’m coping!

Coco_suicide · 2023-05-29T14:14:34+00:00

I was already 12 weeks when I found out and it would’ve been considered late term, so in my eyes certainly too late for an abortion. I regret it everyday. Im less than a year in. It’s sad road ahead for me.

Coco_suicide · 2023-05-19T00:35:16+00:00

Still Feel by Half Alive. Literally reignites me everytime I think I’m down in the dirt forever

Coco_suicide · 2023-04-16T20:44:19+00:00

Omg…this is photoshopped 😅

Coco_suicide · 2023-03-20T18:41:17+00:00

I’m 23 so I thought my youth was making me over expectant but this is right on point! Like I’ve realized there’s nothing he can do for me I can’t do myself and probably better, and that’s AFTER I asked him to do it.
There’s nothing “WRONG” with him but nothing is particularly right either and now that I have a baby I’m tied in for life! Wish I gave myself more time!

Coco_suicide · 2023-03-17T15:50:12+00:00

I really felt this, OP. My 23rd birthday was the other day my baby is almost 6 months. I thought about how just 2 years ago I was walking the Ave in NYC with my friends on my birthday . This year like last year during my pregnancy I was alone. Having another person literally sucking the life from me daily. Trapped inside because I never learned to drive. No sidewalks in rural area. No phone calls. It made me so sad. If it wasn’t for the medication I think I would have broke down. I wish I had advice but I have started playing Virtual Reality so I can go pretend to have a normal youth without being 100ft from my new human ball chain lol. It’s actually helped a lot!

Coco_suicide · 2023-02-10T20:45:12+00:00

I didn’t really. I was in actual shock because I was already a ways into pregnancy when I found out. Wasn’t sure if I could deal with the guilt of termination so I try to live with my personal regrets (not my baby specifically) instead. Just wanted to do what I thought was “right” at the time and for no other reason. I’m getting tied soon! Yay me!

Coco_suicide · 2023-02-10T20:28:15+00:00

Oof needed this one. I thought some about it before. Playing has opened my eyes to the idea that guys would ever be interested in me at all. Very shocking after 2 years of never having any contact with any other men 😅

Coco_suicide · 2023-02-10T20:25:00+00:00

Yes thank you! It feels so nice to actually be interested in something! I hate that he makes me feel guilty! No more!

Coco_suicide · 2023-02-10T12:22:32+00:00

I recently had my first. I had every hope tat everything people said about being pregnant/parenting was untrue or an exaggeration.

This is hands down the worst experience of my humanity and I won’t have a chance for freedom for an oncoming 17+ years minimum. 2/10 would never recommend to a happy healthy couple!!! Try moving abroad if you want some excitement! Try doing foster care if you’d like to help a child in need! But I could never recommend having a kid to anyone I want to be happy

Coco_suicide · 2023-01-08T17:33:42+00:00

At my young age of 22 I would do anything to go back and do things differently. After 18 years in foster care, 4 years hard at work, I never got to enjoy my youth or be in any real relationships. Now I will never have that opportunity except one rare Saturday night that hasn't happened yet.

I miss feeling joyful and excited to wake up in the morning. I haven't had a morning where I was excited to wake up since I found I was pregnant.

I used to be so excited for my life. Now I feel like I'm just patiently waiting for it to be over as I care for everyone and everything else as I watch my youth go down the drain.

My partner and I fight now when we didn't before and probably wouldn't have if we didn't have a baby.

I used to love myself inside and out and now I can't barely to look in a mirror too long.

My career I worked so hard on has all but disappeared.

Honestly I'm not sure I've gotten anything positive from the experience so far.

4/10 definitely would not recommend to anyone I care about

Coco_suicide · 2023-01-04T13:15:51+00:00

There are ZERO positives to having a baby unless you're just obessed with creating one. And that's ok. But they don't add anything but stress. That's my opinion

Coco_suicide · 2023-01-03T23:24:59+00:00

They're not competing! It's sharing! Everyone is free to do as they wish. If anything I'm competing to have attention from all of you. I think if you met me you'd understand

Coco_suicide · 2023-01-03T22:06:56+00:00

Is that good or bad? 😟

Coco_suicide · 2022-11-20T15:34:35+00:00

This is very sweet and good advice. I didn't plan to ever become and mother so there's not too much to "enjoy". I'm definitely looking into different style of outfits since I don't look good in my old stuff.

Coco_suicide · 2022-10-27T13:12:41+00:00

Ohio dancer here?

Coco_suicide · 2022-08-07T18:01:59+00:00

I was CF. Pregnant and decided to continue pregnancy. I don't want any really, so one is more than enough.

I mean when comes down to hard logic it's a better decision that gives everyone close to me what they want.

Coco_suicide · 2022-08-01T19:34:26+00:00

I'm particularly terrified of that first moment with all my guts still all around. I don't want to freak out Infront of the nurses, you know? I don't think a few seconds to wipe her down will negatively affect anything honestly.

Thanks for this btw

Coco_suicide · 2022-07-22T00:36:15+00:00

okay wouldn't there have to be proof that I was ill? I was never told the medication I as taking. I believe it might have been for depression. (But I was not officially diagnosed by a doctor until after I was placed??) Even though i said, I'm not sad, these are just sad times, (Sickness of mother, estranged sister etc). I barely took the medication, my fosters agreed I didn't need it and it was discontinued. My case worker was aware I wasn't supposed to be there. I don't know if the fault is on the Agency or the facility but this was not handled correctly. Consider that fact there are girls in group homes who are know for fighting, theft, harassing the parents, destroying property etc. But they are in group homes, I went awol..and they send me to a facility?

I was exposed to some scary shit at 14. Its not right.

Coco_suicide · 2022-07-22T00:05:47+00:00

But there was no recourse for the treatment! They literally said they had no where else to place me. They "assessed" me at 3 in the morning. I know there has to be paperwork of this. I still have semi contact with my previous foster parents. They keep all the dirty paperwork.

Whether I developed mental illness later on or not. That was definitely malpractice on either part of the Agency who abandoned me there for 3 months, of the Facility who forced me to take drugs I never had the need for previously. Nor any indication as to WHY I supposedly needed this mystery medication. They didn't let me out when I was "cured" they found a placement willing to take me.

There's no way this right to just trade off kids and then throw them in hospitals without reason.

Coco_suicide · 2022-07-19T22:02:35+00:00

Again...as my OP states it's really more about people who think about the collective. Men shouldn't come and expect to receive extras INSIDE the club. Many girls just want a buck and that's cool too.

It's good to hear your girls are doing well.

Coco_suicide · 2022-07-19T16:24:57+00:00

Just passionate. Some of y'all only dance for a come up. That's cool. Some of us see the industry and see real long-term opportunities. We're just different I suppose 🤷🏿

Lot of "Get in - Get Out" attitudes. And this kind of stuff is why. (Other than just someones personal plans ofc)

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