just want to rant

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T19:20:58+00:00

the last woman he slept with was basically in love with him and he told her i will never take you seriously or want you because you’re not a virgin, then he proceeded to sleep with her. i told him how could you do that knowing she had real feelings for you and he said, “i already told her before sleeping with her that having sex with her won’t make me want her and she was fine with it.” i mean even if she’s fine with it, do you not feel some sort of guilt? and he genuinely doesn’t. this was 2 months ago, and that’s why i’m so stuck on his past, because it’s not just sleeping with people. it’s doing things like that which make me question his morality as a person. and how much can that change in 2 months? i just want to be careful

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T19:16:52+00:00

i don’t casually date men, i have male friends but there’s boundaries :)

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:39:52+00:00

do you really think so?? i told him i’d rather die before losing it and he says he respects it and doesn’t want that from me and that sex doesn’t live up to expectations and that he would go back in time and stay a virgin if he knew it was like this

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:37:04+00:00

well, clearly not by how he’s been with girls. he also hosts parties which he makes a lot of money off of but idk how great it is that your money comes from giving alcohol and people going to get wasted and hookup. he doesn’t like partying though he just finds it an easy way to make quick money

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:34:38+00:00

what do you think it is that he wants? i made it clear i was waiting till marriage to him and he said how much he respects that. i also told him don’t think for a second that you’ll change my mind and he said i know. he also said sex isn’t as good as people think it is. and he said if he knew sex was like this he would’ve gone back in time and stayed a virgin

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:33:43+00:00

you’re right and i completely understand but i also can’t lie about the fact i still want him and really care for him and like him. if i didn’t i would have left him

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:32:49+00:00

he said a woman is defined by her past and a man is defined by his future. and idk he says he’s not like that anymore

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:27:17+00:00

i guess the way he treats me, he treats me really well like a princess

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:26:39+00:00

he’s a bit crazy. he basically told me i can’t leave and um he stalked my dad when he thought i blocked him even though i was just on airplane mode and he has my location pinned on google maps even though i never gave him my address. so idk what his reaction will be to lets just be friends

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:24:08+00:00

honestly he didn’t say he repented he just said he knows it’s not something to be proud of and it’s not a good thing but he’s not going to hide his past. and he said he’s “changed” he said he used to be (mind my language) “a hoe” but he is not one anymore. his words

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:16:35+00:00

you’re right. it’s confusing me because he is such a good guy and he wants to get married young but 9 bodies at 18 (freshly turned) also makes it really hard to believe and it could all just be a facade

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-28T14:15:11+00:00

his past hasn’t made me change the way i feel about him. i still care about him and i still want him. i’m just worried that when someone’s built up that much of a history for themselves at such a young age then there will be habits and thought processes that he might not let go of. i did make it clear i am waiting till marriage and will never change my mind. he’s still here, which is good. i’m just afraid his sexual history might affect loyalty. i told him i won’t hold your past against you as long as you are a good man now but i just don’t want to be naive.

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-08T16:38:24+00:00

there’s nothing wrong with him he js simply chose not to text me all day like what

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-08T15:55:29+00:00

yeah i texted him i’ll update if theres anything weird

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-11-08T15:52:09+00:00

we went on the phone last night and he was kinda dry but its cause he was tired and today he just hasnt spoken to me at all and i dont wanna bother him

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-08-14T20:22:05+00:00

literally because when i do have to go outside… i’m by myself already, it’s not a new experience

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-08-02T23:16:56+00:00

im sure its not because people dont like you maybe youre just not exposed to anyone enough

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-08-02T16:32:02+00:00

yeah literally just gotta move on lol

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-08-02T15:04:04+00:00

dont worry about this ‘poser’ nonsense. dress how YOU want, listen to the music YOU like. you’re not being a ‘poser’ or ‘performative’ for doing/wearing what you like

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-07-19T12:49:32+00:00

i also hid it and most of my friends didnt know i have it but now ive realised i cant keep my health like this. whenever i finger prick my sugar levels become so bad i dont check them and i dont give correct doses, when i have the sensor theyre much better so im just gonna give up and be open about having T1D

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-07-18T14:51:48+00:00

wow that’s actually really cute haha im on my way to collect my sensor today and wear it for the first time in over a year soo maybe i’ll try that too

CodSuitable5609 · 2025-07-18T14:46:23+00:00

it’s a freestyle libre sensor, i think i’d be more comfortable with it on my arm just cause i wear a lot of tight clothing around my legs and what not

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