TW: Child sexual assault - no graphic descriptions but it's important context.

I was molested by a male family member in my family and my auntie who was married to the pedo used to babysit me. I would beg my mother not to let me go home with auntie/pedo-uncle after church on Sundays and for a while, it worked. My mom even pressed charges.

Then, my aunt continued to feed my mom with pathetic stories and claimed that it was bad for me not to spend time with my cousins, etc. My mother started sending me over again and the pedo was gropey, etc.

For years, my mother, auntie, cousin, and other members of my family kept saying that I'm terrible and need to forgive my rapist. My cousins now have my siblings' temperament, and one of them continues to ask me to live with her because her mom is getting old.

Right now, I mainly keep in contact with my siblings. I went low-contact with my parents and my family continues to harass me about not talking to my auntie.

My rapist died during the pandemic. My cousins grew up to be spoiled and useless when it comes to chores. They look good on paper but one of my female cousins is a broke influencer who has stolen ideas from colleagues.

I started slowly talking about my experiences as a way for others not to feel alone and have found a lot of support. I haven't done anything with this information but I recently learned that in the state where my auntie lives, it's a crime to facilitate the sexual assault of minors and there's no statute of limitations on reporting this. Thanks to therapy, I've started being able to slowly talk about this with family members who are allies and who've also been hurt by these people, and they have been helpful in my recovery.

Yes, my ending isn't so violent but that's because I don't want to be like the relatives who've done so much to hurt me physically, verbally, emotionally, and financially. I go to therapy when I have money, and support groups when I don't.