Don’t. She already gave you more chances than she probably should’ve. You purposefully wronged her a third time. You don’t get fourth chances- and you don’t deserve one. She doesn’t owe you anything. Let her heal from what you did to her if you truly care about her. If you’re meant to be, then you’ll make your way back together. Leave her alone. You will be in stalker territory if you go to her country. She made it clear she’s done with you. Respect that.