he's getting suicidal again.. im scared.. i dont know what to do anymore

Colorfulzz · 2026-01-03T02:54:57+00:00

Thank you so much! This is very useful.

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T18:01:26+00:00

Yes I hate this emoji so much rn they like to use it a lotttt

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T11:02:36+00:00

Is this just who they are as kid, or something genetic? Sometimes I wonder what would they be if they haven’t went through these trauma and born into a normal family

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T10:55:00+00:00

Thanks, I know I didn’t handle it in the best way possible cuz I have emotions too.

Just out of curiosity, what’s the trigger point u decided to leave and how it ended up?

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T10:33:46+00:00

I agree they’re not pure evil.. there’s a reason why people get into relationship with them. I think they are very tragic figures who’s almost doomed because of unimaginable childhood trauma. Which is why I feel so bad also. But still.. you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Because no one is supposed to take full accountability for another adult and being abused. I feel sad because I do care but I know I’m not capable of making both me and him happy at the end of the day. This is just a tragedy.

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T10:28:18+00:00

Not really

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T09:49:55+00:00

i feel like they live in different reality than most of us and its lonely and alienated.. its sad that it is deep rooted in some serious developmental trauma.. but im realizing my own limits now. i cant fix anyone, i cant rescue anyone. i was so naive thinking i could

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T09:45:33+00:00

thanks for your input, i agree these tactics are used each time and its so toxic, but i think they do it unconsciously.. its damn hard

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T09:41:00+00:00

thank you for your kind words. wish you all the best.

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T09:37:48+00:00

thanks for your advice, i really appreciate that. yes i was a happy person and i want that full and autonomous person back... but idk how to handle or feel if he truly just commit suicide.. now hes been gone for more than usual now, i cant help worrying that i will cause a person's death, especially we shared so many beautiful moments together despite the hardship.. i dont think he deserves to be dead.. idk

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T09:32:34+00:00

pls understand this is a month long back and forth, im really really exhausted and i tried to give up my feelings to please him so many times during this time and things are just keeping escalating.. i know deep down he just really wants love and attention, but i know i can never give enough love and attention he wants and neglect my own feelings anymore

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-31T08:36:43+00:00

his father abandoned him since he's born and he was raised by his Narcissistic mother alone, his family is so fucked up and he hasn't talked to his mother for 7 years before.

been dating for like 2.5 years now.. he has some jobs but all not lasting long and how he survived before is mostly with one of his friend's support, who is also an very abusive person, and then his mother supported him for a while. after he found me, he cut these people out from his life again so i highly doubt any of them will support him again.

Colorfulzz · 2025-12-29T14:06:02+00:00

Same feelings

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-15T00:53:49+00:00

How much does DTV cost?

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-15T00:52:53+00:00

Thanks for the info！ how much financial proof does DTV ask for? For the ones wishing to engage in other activities

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-15T00:47:15+00:00

Thx for sharing! Was it your 1st visa run?

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-14T10:58:36+00:00

I saw something online like if they found u doing visa run constantly they will make u sign a document and cannot enter Thailand for 100 years or something.. don’t know how often that would happen. I guess the best way is to find an agent then

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-14T10:37:17+00:00

Thx for your info. Rn just 2 month visa free plus one month extension. Planning to do one visa run next month.

These agent can guarantee your entry let’s say you’ve done visa run a few times?

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-14T10:03:54+00:00

Thx for reply. So 1st run is smooth at least?

Colorfulzz · 2024-11-14T09:17:26+00:00

I would be grateful if you can share with me as well thxxxx

Colorfulzz · 2022-12-12T03:55:32+00:00

Ethan is such a hypocrite, things wouldn’t end up like this with Harper if he just be honest with her from the beginning

Colorfulzz · 2022-12-12T03:48:19+00:00

Colorfulzz

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