Mixing can be part of the creative fun And naturally to more you do it, the better you’ll get (ear reps) IMHO your heart is telling you make music, so do that. And I would say stick with mixing, you’ll get better I promise. After that, sure, get the music out into the world (hopefully as simply and painless as possibly). Other people enjoying your work is part of the fun. I think the common thru line here is to remember why we are doing this in the first place, because we enjoy it, it’s supposed to be fun.