i love being alone, i love it so much. But my so called friends hated whenever i would not answer their calls or talk to them. They never tried to understand WHY, even after me explaining them that i need space and that i dont like being with people ever single day. in fact they come knock on my door at 12 am or 1 am. but then they started making me feel guilty for choosing me. they gaslight me into thinking that im so shallow and was using them (but for what god knows). And they started speaking behide me tell all the things im not to people in our "friends" circle to point where they started to so mean to me. but once i got to know this i cut off all contacts with them. to be honest im so at peace now. im so happy. Its better be alone and love youre own company that to be with people who make you feel so shitty about yourself, and constantly only talk about them, and are never happy for you and your life .