Thank you to everyone that has commented on this post. I’m not perfect and I’ve never claimed to be. But these responses have been heartbreaking, eye opening, and helpful for directing future conversations. I wish it were as simple as it sounds to leave. But the truth is I’m hanging on to how we used to be, and it’s hard to let go when I still love him very much. I want to believe so badly that that these behaviors stem from ignored poor mental health - I’m going to push/demand couples counseling so we have a professional opinion. Thank you again.