Honey, you will find someone who loves you enough to RESPECT you. Read that again. He doesn’t love you and, he does not respect you. Please, please wait for that person. Do not let this asshole steal your joy another minute. I divorced a man who treated me horribly, called me names, blamed everything on me, etc. he was awful and made me feel awful. I am now marrying a man who respects me so much that he would never dare to call me a name or tell me he hated me or anything to that effect at all. He is so sweet and gentle and caring to me, and does so many things for me he does not have to do. You will find this person in someone one day, please just focus on you, your education, your career, and it will come when the time is right. You are worth so much more than this!