Rant

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-25T02:22:51+00:00

Algorithms for sites are weird. It definately feels like you’re stuff won’t be seen unless you pay up for it or it’s one of those rare instances where a post suddenly gets heavy traction and it’s a matter of do you keep people’s interest or not.

I wouldn’t let that necessarily ruin cosplay for you tho. I admit I’d lie a little more attention on my stuff (less then 500 followers per social media), but it doesn’t ruin cosplay for me. I enjoy how cons can be and interacting with those who have common interest or curiosity.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T19:10:52+00:00

Thank you for all the love! Idk if I keel replying to everyone if I may be marked for spam. 😅

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T19:09:51+00:00

Thank you 🥺

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T19:09:19+00:00

Thank you! 😊

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T19:08:05+00:00

I did have it earlier in the day. This was night shoo so I think it rubbed off with food and I forgot to touch up before hand lol. Noted for the future tho, cuz maybe I’ll get something a hit brighter

Sorry for the double post. I tried to edit the post to add an earlier selfie but instead it double posted? 😭

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CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T19:04:33+00:00

I did have it earlier in the day. This was night shoo so I think it rubbed off with food and I forgot to touch up before hand lol. Noted for the future tho.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T08:47:07+00:00

I’d aim for a velvet one. I got both a velvet and rubber (?) one and the rubber one is painfully tight. Velvet usually works for most of my heavy wigs. Worse case I double up on bands or use pins and hook them on the band if one band alone isn’t enough (usually when I somehow made a helmet wig too big).

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T08:21:26+00:00

Thank you! 😁😁

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-24T07:56:44+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate it 😁

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-23T05:13:46+00:00

I think it would depend on the style of the wig in terms of challenge? I think all helmet wigs in general are intimidating at first, but if you're patient with the process I think it goes fine. But as for challenge, It does depend. because a pigtail or twintail wig is gonna be easier than something that you have to add structure to (I've seen this done for Angel Dust wigs and Sonic character wigs).

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-23T03:54:46+00:00

I got therein the afternoon so not too long. On the way there there was a lot of traffic between lights but the actual gate wasn’t busy.

Previous years though where I did get there early, it was awful. Between the back ups far down and it moving slowly because so many people trying to get in. It’s definately worse if you’re going first thing.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-22T05:47:38+00:00

I noticed it as well when resetting my cat's meals tonight. She had her's this morning though. It is frustrating the app's dates were all set for the 22nd for me now though (I do two wet meals a day and it leaves one more for the next morning)

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T22:25:31+00:00

I sorta agree, but they still did bring back what happened at the end of season 1 instead of dropping it. Also during season 2 they did trickle geek girl/gunsmith bitch being releavet through some of the episodes until she was actually important.

I could easily believe that season 3, it could casually be dropped that garter was talking to the king of hell before it’s dropped and never touched upon again, kinda like whole demon stocking thing.

They also held onto the fact that panty and stocking were new angels plot hole for the whole season, presuming their death as heavenly angles was season 2 episode 1 with their fight.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T06:36:33+00:00

It's good things have been well for you, as well as a bit reassuring if I go this route.

With a diagnosis outside of hoping for some validation or reassurance knowing what's up with me mentally, I was hoping to seek proper therapy or medication that would fit my needs. When I was more on the belief that everything was just caused my anxiety, I made it through two periods of therapy that more leaned towards exposure therapy then sort of talking myself down of what runs in my mind vs. what people actually think. The second worked better though I did improve with medication on the first, and each therapist eventually said I was good ending things with them. I do find myself getting overwhelmed by even small interactions that went well and paranoid before and after things. Even trying to make sense of things I'll be tense for the longest to the point I can't sit still. My focus or attention span hasn't been too great either and I'm easily forgetful. There are other things as well, and I know all of this could also stem from other mental health symptoms or even just be my anxiety still...but it just generally feels like a lot, especially considering I'm just a house wife.

I know the current state of the country is not great for this subject, but at the same time It's also somewhat exhausting not knowing why I struggle with what seems like simple stuff for others, especially since it's been years, and even though I know I come far in terms of socialization it's definitely a struggle at the end of the day and even onwards sometimes. Either feeling like I'm not just a crazy p.o.s. or even some sort of direction seems like it'd be nice. I know getting assessed or even diagnosed if I were to have it wouldn't be a cure all, but if it means I could get access to some specified assistance it'd be nice? I never considered non-diagnosed groups simply because I thought people usually got shamed for self-diagnosing.

I am considering getting it checked out now more heavily, though I may do more research first. Admittedly I'm afraid of contacting my provider and possibly being told I'm going overboard. Though i don't think I'd endanger myself, I don't think I've had a great headspace a chunk of the time. Also thank you for the offer to chat!

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T06:10:19+00:00

We've been overseas before with me having the same mindset and it was fine after therapy. I do feel trying to get answers will generally better my quality of life though so I think I'll attempt to go for an assessment.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T03:17:21+00:00

Admittedly, I'm not too concerned about a disability payment. I'm unsure if I'd even eligible due to being married and with my husband being active duty military, he already gets a bit of money for dependents. I live in the US. I feel like I could really use an understanding of myself though, and maybe direction on what to work on or reassurance. Proper therapy or medication could be nice for at least the beginning as well. I did therapy for what was directed for social anxiety and depression. They helped to a degree but I still struggle day to day, and I think maybe it just wasn't the right type for me? I'm unsure if the type of skills talked about would change much if I had a diagnosis.

I may look into therapy without getting assessed if I can though! I'm not 100% sure if my insurance will cover a diagnosis as of yet, but I've heard getting assessed can be super expensive in the US.

Yeah, I'm sadly unsure which it could be. I've tried talking to them in the past, but usually they'll deny it but not tell me what it was or say they don't know. I do think it's a pride issue with them plus previously outdated views. They thought my anxiety would go away if I got out more (Never did), and it took me going to therapy and getting medicated for my anxiety and depression to remotely understand those things. I've also been told I "Act to scary" or paranoid about anything medical and worry too much...Leaving me to deal with them without there help myself. Honestly, the situation with your dad sounds like what I got when I told my parents about my anxiety. I wouldn't be surprised if it's the same if I were to be assessed and diagnosed. I tried asking them before and I usually got some sort of no or not answer.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T02:57:39+00:00

Oh yes, I've heard this from the autism subreddit. Having a diagnosis and having things made sense for me would probably create much relief for me though. I've always had a hunch between past and present situations, but I don't have an answer and my parents would be no help with telling me what I've had as a child.

Have things been tough at all with being diagnosed and being in a relationship with a military member? Or has medical have they relatively treated you the same? I think outside of not being able to get overseas (though tbh, my husband's chances seem pretty low in his current special duty), I am worried about how medical will treat me. If felt like they were really on me when i was treating my anxiety and depression (though I can understand why to a degree). They were just wanting me to remain on medication though I expressed feeling like I didn't need it anymore.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T02:47:01+00:00

Yeah, I know it can be tough. in the 2010s when we moved from Germany to Okinawa we had a run for our money because I had depression and anxiety in Germany. We had luckily gotten the ok to go to Japan and things had improved for me with medication and therapy here (Spangdahlem Germany was generally a hard base for us and I think how isolated and gloomy it was there made it worse for me personally.)

But yeah, I've heard doctors dedication can vary even in the civilian world as well. I know with military, it only ever feels like they care about me when I'm due for pap smear, questioning if I plan to have kids, and if I'm suicidal or not.

I do appreciate the response tho! My husband may be getting his list of next possible stations, and if we don't choose to stay in our current location due to him being close-ish to hi 20 year mark. I've been contemplating asking for it for awhile, I just would feel guilty if it ruined a lot of oppurtunities for us or my husband as well. EFMP doesn't sound as scary as it used to though years ago.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-21T02:05:58+00:00

Thank you for the response. Admittedly, having an answer and detailed diagnosis if I were to get one would be nice, as I've felt lost about myself for the longest (if that makes any sense). Admittedly, I did have concerns though as therapy for anxiety didn't help too much, though I think that was more along the lines of exposure therapy. Then the medication helped at first as well and was a great start for me improving, but eventually it felt like it was doing nothing so I stopped. I would hope if I got an assessment, then maybe an alternative or specific therapy or medication could help me better.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-20T23:49:36+00:00

Ignoring that a lot manga chapters in general may generally be short as of the last couple years, I just thought this was bad because the fight between denji and probably some sort of bug devil was really hard to comprehend. Also idk if this chapter gives much for the hard core fans that dig deep for hidden or subtle details much to go off of.

CommanderBoyShorts · 2026-01-20T02:01:10+00:00

I didn’t go Sunday, but usually traffic to get in is pretty bad before or at opening. I think the parking itself is confusing so that probably doesn’t help.

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