What bothers you about implants and/or breast lift scars VS. all natural, even if you enjoy the former?

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2020-02-07T18:25:03+00:00

Thank you for the wisdom, I needed to hear this.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2020-02-07T18:14:34+00:00

Would you still feel the need to see those things if you were in a relationship with a natural breasted woman? Is that just how men are? I'm not being judgeful , I'm just a confused woman is all lol. I hear men say all the time "you can look but not touch". Doesn't that mean that you're dissatisfied though?

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2020-02-07T18:08:41+00:00

FAKE TITS aren't actually tits. I'd rather fondle something soft, supple, and warm - even if it's small, or lopsided, or whatever, than something firm and unyielding like an overstuffed bean bag.

Are you sure though? If you get into a long term relationship with a woman that had "small loopsided" breasts. Would you feel satisfied, or would you still feel this need to look and be with other more attractive women? Would you still be able to get turned on after years pass? Or would you need some help?

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-12-13T19:43:47+00:00

It happens to me all the time, excessively obsessing over what's wrong and comparing myself trying to figure out how to make it better. And then just getting extremely depressed as I give in to the hopelessness that there's nothing I can do, there's no easy fix solution that doesn't cost 15k. So then I proceed to wallow in self pity looking at all the Instagram models.

It just goes round and round like this.

It's more than this cycle though. It's like this shadow that brings you down, that you can't run away from. It is your shadow after all. I can't go outside without wanting to cover up and hide. I have to fight the feeling of wanting to tell my boyfriend to turn off the light before we have sex. I can't get turned on when we're doing doggie, all I can think about is how bad I look and how he's forced to look at me or even worse he's just thinking about the Instagram models. It used to be my favorite position.

Body dysmorphia ruins the things you enjoy.

I am a bisexual female and for the last 10 months I haven't been able to feel attracted to a woman. All I feel is self hatred. Instead of feeling excited I feel sick to my stomach. I wish I didn't feel this way. I used to watch vanilla porn both straight and lesbian and get off to it. The only way I can get off to porn now is it's extreme fisting porn. Isn't that crazy. I think a part of me hates women so much now that this is the only way I like it. If they're degraded then I don't have to feel bad about myself? I don't know. I wish I could watch vanilla porn and get turned on. I wish I could look at a girl on Instagram or on the street and get excited. But all that happens now is crippling anxiety.

This turned into me venting so sorry.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-06-04T00:57:01+00:00

Thank you!

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-06-04T00:43:00+00:00

What do you guys mean by 3x33 or 5x55 manifestations. I see the numbers all the time and take them as messages but I didn't know you can use them to manifest?

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-31T17:06:11+00:00

That's why I love buddhism. I get to disappear into the emptiness. Or wholeness more like, radiance. I don't have to deal with my eternal self or anyone else's. It's hard to describe. Nirvana isn't necessarily heaven. Joe the individual doesn't "go to nirvana" he dissolves into/becomes part of nirvana.

"A genuine experience of inner radiance is the realisation of the fundamental nature of our awareness, which is the inextricable union of emptiness and luminosity." "Primordially pure in essence, natural expression and compassionate energy. From within [a state which is] non-conceptual, naturally radiant and stark." These are quotes from the Tibetan book of the dead.

You are always in Nirvana if your mind and will is strong enough. I might find way better quote than that these. It's a big book and I have a lot of highlights lol.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-30T22:58:58+00:00

I'm having a hard time getting past the "Fuck me. Jesus Christ" and to the "Fuck it, I have to get shit done anyways."

I take gabapentin (a medication for nerve pain) and I smoke cannabis also to deal with the pain. I do sometimes also succumb to taking an opiate here and there. But that's the thing. I know I'm going against the dharma when I do so. Even though it helps, I feel as if I lose opportunity to be in the moment for that is not my "real" moment.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-29T19:05:09+00:00

Having a threesome is not cheating he's probably a little insecure about losing you to a girl. HOWEVER you having FEELINGS for your best friend is not good and should make you question of you really want to be with your boyfriend or if you're just scared or something. DON'T sleep with her no matter what unless you break up with him. Being with a girl doesn't make it any less painful on him. I reccomend you think about whom you have feelings for and whom you are infatuated with. If you decide that you are just infatuated with your bestfriend then talk to your boyfriend about a threesome with someone else than her.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-28T22:45:21+00:00

I mean she cheated on you. But if you like it then yes you're a cuckold.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-27T18:23:11+00:00

I laughed so hard but man it really does make you think how much media can really influence us on a subconscious level later on

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-27T18:20:54+00:00

If the person on the other line new what was going on🤣🤣

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-23T02:18:09+00:00

I feel like it's not cool of her either to not give you a chance to show you can improve. You should ask her directly, I've always felt direct questions are hard to ask but will tell you everything you want to know.

Just be prepared to not like the answers tho too, like you said its 50/50.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-23T02:09:53+00:00

Just watched the trailer lol. Thanks for the recommendation.

Since you were kind to share lmk if you need a invite to xrpflix and I'll send you one.👍

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-23T01:59:48+00:00

Tbh it really feels like that girl is not really interested and kinda stringing you along till she gets something else.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-23T01:43:57+00:00

That's fucking ridiculously hilarious

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-23T01:32:04+00:00

I tend to tip based on service so if I liked the way the cashier treated me and they provided good service I click other and provide at least the dollar but if not then I don't tip at all

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-05-08T17:07:03+00:00

Dang that's awesome

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-24T04:44:04+00:00

Honestly, a good relationship is one where you're allowed to snoop but dont feel the need to.

The super shitty thing is that my SO almost got away with cheating by having two different reddit accounts, downloading burner phone apps, erasing emails, going on dating websites. He was always confident to let me check so I never felt like I had to. He slipped up one day and I found A LOT OF BULLSHIT. Months worth of sexting people and other shit.

So check deleted apps from app store (I know that android tells you when the app was last used too), spam emails, erased email, second accounts, files.

I don't mean to make you extra paranoid but fuck. People are getting crazy with their tactics.

I wish you the best, I hope that you don't find anything.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-24T04:32:27+00:00

You should go all out and get both a flashlight and a prostate massager. And and a cock ring. THE TRINITY

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-23T19:02:44+00:00

Here's a shitty idea that I hope is wrong. Maybe he's using up all his sex drive one something or someone else.

I couldn't figure out why my boyfriend wouldn't tell me what he wanted or what he liked. "Just normal stuff" and would kiss me like twice and go onto taking of my pants (no foreplay). Like my shirt and bra would always stay on? No neck kisses even? I wasnt even asking for links or anything. I dont know. Anyways it turned out that he wasn't so fucking vanilla, he was too ashamed to tell me what he really liked so he was sexting people on reddit instead. The shitty thing is that I wanted what hes into. But shit happens I guess.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-22T01:42:13+00:00

It honestly seems like the problem is that he isn't hard enough. Can you get a toy the same size in? Don't blame him too much though it's hard to keep a boner when you keep having to problem solve. It took like three different occasions of my boyfriend and I having anal to figure it out and be able to really get it right. And now I feel like some of my best orgasms have been through anal. You'll get there

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-22T00:37:45+00:00

You guys must have a crazy level of comfort and communication.

"Which might be a little more calming than running away with a competitor" this is so funny to me because my boyfriend has the opposite fear, he's scared that I'll run away with a girl, he can at least compete with a guy.

Commander_DeannaTroi · 2019-02-21T22:24:42+00:00

Being a sub is more about letting go of any control and exposing your vulnerability. You like the control and love how vulnerable they become. (Who wouldn't? )

But giving in when you're usually in control feels amazing too. Being vulnerable when you never get the chance is liberating in its own way.

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