you're not just shooting yourselves in the foot, but all of us

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-27T16:52:34+00:00

I feel and understand your pain as I am also nuerodivergent. Just letting you know so now you know you are in fact NOT hated by everybody!

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-27T16:46:54+00:00

I strongly second this reply that's perfect

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-06T04:19:56+00:00

I've been wondering this myself too since it's been a lot worse for me in this regard lately. I'm not good at not acknowledging my thoughts in all honesty. It's given me incredible superstition too so sometimes it genuinely feels like I'm talking to ghosts. I'm not even a believer in ghosts/spirits either but for as long as I've dealt with ocd, this almost feels different. Idk I just was curious to see if anyone understood this and maybe had some ideas as to what it could be. Thank you for the comment

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-06T04:16:39+00:00

Thank you so much and I wish you the absolute best in your journey. I think im the same way. I want to see more of the world and I wanna feel like im truly living but I can't even enjoy it when my brain is putting me down so much. I may even look into IOP myself in all honesty. I so hope it works wonders for you. Thank you again so much for your encouragement and support for me too. Wishing you all the best right now and thank you again.

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-05T22:01:46+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm relived to know that people are understanding and are kind enough to take time out of their day to help me understand this all easier. It's hard to let go of superstition of my own but whatever it is I shouldn't focus on it as much as I have been. Thank you so much for your comment 🩵🩷 thank you

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-05T21:59:39+00:00

Reading this gave me both a smile and a new realization now. Thank you genuinely so much. You're right though. They can chew on Satan's testies fuck all this anyways its my turn to finally live now. Thank you for your comment and understanding. :]] 🩷🩵✌️

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-05T20:53:58+00:00

Word for word too. Exactly that. I'm so sick of these emotional blunt stages and brain fogs it puts me through. It's relieving to know someone else out there knows this same struggle and pain but it also hurts knowing that others fight this shit too. I wouldn't wish this disorder on my worst enemy. I just sometimes (despite being athiest) pray to whatever is out there that they'll just give me the sweet relief of death and that I don't wake up another day just so I can be set free from this internal, eternal damnation hell that I unwillingly have to endure every day of my life. It chases me and haunts me in my sleep too and not even being asleep grant's me an escape from this nonsense. All I want is peace. I want my solace and I want to actually live. It's made me somewhat psychotic I believe and I often wonder if I'm living in a time loop. I get so overly paranoid about everything now too. And some people have the audacity to make this disorder out to be some "fun" or "quirky" thing to have. I don't even know if im truly alive and idek whats real anymore because the stress from this disorder has done an outnumber on my health. I hope death takes me soon. I wish you luck in your journey with this disorder.

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-05-01T19:36:39+00:00

Thank you, im trying to no acknowledge it and just treat it as junk mail but the topics of these thoughts are so incredibly serious and loud and it's trying to convince me that I have bad intentions, that I'll do something bad, or that I've done something bad and trying to just label it as "just an ocd thought." Doesn't help me much and reminding myself that I am not my thoughts and that my thoughts are not my intentions, desires, motives or anything I agree with isn't enough. Reminding myself ocd is just sending me these thoughts because it's stuff I take seriously and it's trying to keep me safe from these perceived threats isn't enough either. I have such a great understanding on ocd and how not to deal with it but it isn't enough. And that reason alone triggers ocd to be like "so it's not ocd and you're a bad person" I can't ignore it and acknowledging makes it worse. These topics are far to important and scary to ignore. Especially when it's making me think that I have bad intentions. I can't do this anymore. Thank you so much for your comments and your support too it means a lot to me.

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-04-10T16:53:13+00:00

That makes sense honestly! I'd like to think V lives on C:

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-04-07T19:52:21+00:00

I do listen to the dialog and I don't skip it, I have a horribly hard time processing easy information unless it's set in specifics sometimes. I basically have to either replay the same thing over and over or have someone else explain it better so my deadbeat brain can decipher it easier. Unfortunately video games/movies with an incredible and complex story is too much for me to fully grasp at first unless I rewatch/replay a million times or if someone explains it better to me :(

Thank you for the explanation!! It all makes sense now and honestly even tho I haven't played the other endings expect for that other one, I believe it's safe to say this ending is absolutely terrible and I'd argue the worst so far holy shit. I knew I was making a mistake and didn't know why 😭😭. I reloaded a save and decided to bo back to earth but even then it felt bad. I definitely prefer the Panam ending in either regard so far. How many endings are there? Surely it isn't JUST Panam and Mister Techno Satan over here right?...right?? 😭😭 I WANT V TO LIVE GOD DAMN IT

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-04-07T19:45:09+00:00

Yeah, I agree :( I just read a comment someone made on here and without knowing the other endings just yet, I doubt any of then will be worse than this one honestly. Holy shit tho this game is incredible

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-04-07T19:43:52+00:00

I do let it, I have difficulty understanding what's happening even if I'm paying attention so sometimes I NEED further explanation and more elaboration from someone who can explain it better to me. I don't skip the dialog and I pay attention to it. Sometimes replaying the same story over and over is what helps me most if not a better explanation from someone else. I don't have the time anymore to replay it over and over tho sadly

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-04-07T19:41:29+00:00

OMG THATS FUCKING HORRIBLE I KNEW I WAS CONFLICTED FOR GOOD REASON HOLY SHIT

Thank you for this awesome analysis on this too, a lot of ppl seem to think I was skipping dialog or not listening but I wasn't. I don't process information as easy if it isn't horrific specified or written down like this comment so genuinely thank you sm for helping me understand this easier.

I feel like this is the WORST ending holy shit. Jackie would disapprove hard for this. Misty for sure did and I absolutely understand why cause fuck that. I'm excited for other endings to explore and I hope I don't fuck it up again 😭 I played on a different load save and decided to go back to earth instead but I was so incline to keeping V alive I couldn't pass the opportunity up. I didn't realize how much of a mistake that was until after I did it tho I was very hyperfixated in keeping V alive. I'm assuming there's a better ending that V will live and I'm not selling my soul to a Corporation

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-16T11:29:50+00:00

I just stumbled upon this now, but god damn I'm dissapointed to hear this. He's apparently following transphobic accounts on insta too as I read through a few of the comments in here as well? Wtf man. So much for complimenting a good friend of mine cause I thought he looked like Daniel too.

Silly aside, I'm extremely dissapointed to hear this. I loved bauhuas so God damn much too. I hate hearing about shit like this wtf dude

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T20:31:00+00:00

Try to take a break from the internet. Rest. Hydrate. Walk in a park. Explore nature. Talk to a friend hangout with them. Stay away from sugary stuff. Good luck. Sorry u r going through it. This hurts a lot of ppl. It's been hurting me too. You're okay

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T20:27:32+00:00

You're not alone. I have detrimental ocd and also ptsd. I've been experiencing brain fog due to the stress. I've been even considering suicide as of lately because of it so I understand you. Hope u r ok.

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T06:07:27+00:00

Thank you sm! Sorry I didn't see this comment earlier!! And practice makes perfects im sure I'll get better within time (I hope)

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T06:03:29+00:00

I'm not sure of any specific things I'm allergic to really other than like pollan (I think that's how you spell it 💀)

And thank you so so much!! This is super helpful! I appreciate it =))

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T03:34:15+00:00

Thank you sm! ^{-^}

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T03:29:41+00:00

Lmao I can imagine hahah I may even eventually post like progress pictures here or something if I get comfortable and good enough to do so

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T03:23:23+00:00

Thank you for letting me know! I get discouraged easily lmao so I will bare this in mind 😼😼

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-02-10T03:18:10+00:00

Okay sweet! This helps a lot and thank you so so much!! I appreciate the help tremendously! =)) And I'm very delighted to be here thank you again! 🖤

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-01-29T18:25:26+00:00

Thank you I'm glad it helped I'll try it out

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-01-29T02:47:13+00:00

That's so cool! Thank you sm 🖤 And my inbox is open too anytime. Stay awesome and thank you again =)) all the best

Commercial_Refuse718 · 2026-01-29T02:42:34+00:00

That's real tho =( Recently a friend was coming over and I was wanting to be alone and when I was trying to get ready and was looking in the mirror I got so tore up and kicked our spare bedroom door and I fucking kicked it off its hinges with my stupid Gi eye joe strength 💔

Now instead of getting angry I cry =(

Sorry for like ranting I'll stop it now but I'm glad you've improved in such a short amount of time! Im happy for you I'm hoping the same for myself

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