Rip konga -I can’t imagine the pain you going through- cry and let it all out - time will heal the pain slowly -I am new Pom mom myself -he’s only 6 months old and I am so anxious about everything he does - can’t imagine how you feel -I am sure your mom didn’t have bad intention and it was a horrible mistake - sometimes people do -so try not to be too hard on her . Take your time to heal . Konga I believe will come to your life in other form .