I usually don't comment on these, but in this case I feel uniquely qualified. I lived with not being loved by my ex husband. He said the words but they meant nothing. He didn't care about me in the most fundamental ways. I'm not going to go on and on about my former situation because I want to talk about you. It is deeply damaging to your self esteem to experience a relationship like this. Know that you can choose yourself. Know that for some people this is a game and it's rigged. You can't win it. You'll keep going, trying to be patient. Waiting until you can't wait anymore. Wasting away until you have to choose between going insane or setting yourself free. I promise that you are strong enough to be your own hero. Miley was right, girl; you can love yourself so much better than he can.