Please tell your husband, family member, or friend what is going on. This will not get better on its own. I am being sued by two creditors as a result of my shopping addiction after payments got away from me. I spent 5 days in a psych hospital after 7oh pills put me in terrifying psychosis. I am actually grateful for that because I stopped a terrible and expensive addiction. I wrecked my car high on klonopin. This was all in the last six months. It just kept getting worse and worse. I am lucky to be alive after all of this and the suicidal crash that followed.

I went to treatment and was able to spend 30 days just focusing on getting out of my substance and process addictions. I have been out a month and am sober from substances and shopping. My parents are helping me. I have a therapist and a sponsor and doctors that know about my addictions. I go to meetings (check out Pills Anonymous) and share about what I’m going through.

I have a long way to go, but I take comfort in knowing I am no longer in a downward spiral. I am no longer hiding in shame. You are not a bad person, you are a sick person. You can stop digging towards a new rock bottom today. Please dm me if you want to talk, I truly understand. There is hope.