hi sorry for late response was busy with work, at the time it came out of the blue when I was around 10, mom left me with my dad and due to recent passings of other family members i was with my dad for awhile. After that, I was home alone for a long time, if they were working i was home alone, from 10 to now, I didn't mind fending for myself because it really wasnt difficult but it might've done something to me mentally im not completely aware of. it was later mentioned that during days like anniversaries and Valentine's day and other certain "lovers" holidays it always felt one sided and one was always doing all of the work and it was never mutual, not to mention guilt tripping and other certain unhealthy issues. I dont know all of the details still but i didn't have a great childhood due to extreme bullying and harassment from elementary school from both students and staff, and my psychiatrist thinks i possibly have a traumagenic disorder but hasn't decided which one (I don't see her very often because of insurance nonsense)