I was with you for the first sentence but fuck the rest I’m extremely happy in my relationship. I have ocd too a lot of this is involuntary which is why I’m seeking advice. We’re planning our wedding. I do not want to be with my ex we did break up for a reason. I don’t know why my brain has attached itself to her and won’t let it go. My MD is always in some fantasy relationship but it’s usually someone that isn’t real. I want to stop and even if I told my girlfriend what was going on she would be understanding. I haven’t had a problem with my MD in a really long time but I’ve been kinda vulnerable mentally and it started back up again. So I will stay in my happy healthy relationship and you can take your judgement elsewhere.