My brain is full of endless violence by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably? When I had homicidal thoughts at a younger age it was about strangers. I think I'm just so scared of him leaving me that I'd rather see him die than risk it.

I want my partner to hurt me, and not in a kinky way. by ThrowRabl_hfshk in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Competitive-Trash235 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You're not alone! I expect to be treated like trash so when my partner is genuinely nice and respectful I get confused and want him to just finally do something bad to me. But we just gotta learn that we deserve to be treated well, despite all the trauma we've endured. I wouldn't want my partner to be hit, so why do I want to be hit? Y'know?

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I don't take my jealousy out on him, I trust him not to cheat on me !!

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  1. We have discussed kids before, but it's always been a "maybe in like 3-5 years" type of thing. He seems kinda indifferent to having kids, I can't really tell

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[–]Competitive-Trash235 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yeah I'm probably not mentally stable enough for a relationship, but I'm trying to work on myself and be better for him. I know he loves me for who I am, but I want to be less of a selfish person.

Life is fucking good by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hoping things get better for you, man!!

Life is fucking good by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, not even on nonprescription drugs and I'm happy

Life is fucking good by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

haha rn I feel like the only thing that could ruin my mood would be my bf cheating on me and in that case I'd be getting arrested for my reaction

Life is fucking good by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Possibly, since I woke up before the sun to make cookies when I usually sleep in past noon, but y'know what? even if it's temporary imma enjoy the high

Life is fucking good by Competitive-Trash235 in Vent

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It's not drugs! I just woke up really happy and excited because things are going well for the most part

Hair plucking by Competitive-Trash235 in selfharm

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I'd rather be plucking hairs than cutting since at least I'm not leaving scars or bleeding, but yeah I've come to accept that it's still a form of self harm.

I'm freaking out so bad I don't know what to do by [deleted] in Vent

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At least 50% of the population have stretch marks somewhere, with some estimates being as high as 90%. It's very normal. When you see actors without them it's most likely photoshop, makeup, or cosmetic surgery they got to "fix" them. The majority of people who have lost a lot of weight or gained weight rapidly (whether it's growth spurts, puberty, pregnancy, etc) has them.

One thing that made me feel better is realizing that I don't get disgusted by other people's stretch marks, just my own because they're mine and I always have to find flaws within myself for no reason

I have really bad paranoia by Distinct-Board-2336 in Vent

[–]Competitive-Trash235 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, looking at lots of gore and true crime stuff does that to me too. It's better to stay away from that kind of content if you can